Middle Child

Listen. Don't Speak.
2007-11-07 04:45:39 (UTC)

I think I'm falling again...

I've been talking to Anthony for about 2 years now. When we
started talking I think he liked me more than I liked him. I
think what held me back was the way he looks. He isn't ugly.
He just looks very Greek. lol. I don't know how to explain
it. He is greek though. Because of him, greek guys are on
my top list. We stopped talking after awhile. I think it
was because I didn't want to date a guy who was 5 years
older and who wasn't my type in looks wise. Yes, that was
the reason.

It still kinda is the reason. But I don't know, after not
talking him for more than 10 months, there's something
different about him. Or, I think it's me.

I started talking to him again when he broke up with his gf.
A little bit more than a month, he started talking to me. We
started talking a month before my ex and i ended it. Ironic,
huh? I think in a way it was good to have a guy that i
liked and likes me, talking to me. Because when I talk to
him, I don't talk or think about my ex. Once it happened. I
was missing my ex, and he knew it. But he knows the whole
situation about me and him.

Anyways, I think I'm more attracted to him now for a couple
of reasons. He isn't so gentle as before, he's open his wild
side to me. He's into sports, which is so sexy. It's so
manly. With my ex, I kinda thought he could be gay, from the
way he walked, how he spoke and said every letter in the
word. GAY! The fact that he's so manly, yet has a soft side.
FUCK ME NOW!!! i love it. Also, he likes to joke around. I
like that. I like saying stupid things and he laughs and
brings it up again in jokes. But these are just the
positive thigns about him. The things that i dont like about
him is that he's sexually active. i'm not into that, in
fact, it worries me. Also, he dislikes cats. I LOVE THEM!!!

Will I ever date him?
I don't know. I would like to, but I don't know when. Maybe
when I'm older? I'm not in a hurry to date him. We both like
each other ever since we started talking and he told me
he'll like me even if I was married with 10 kids. lol. So,
even if we stay friends.....mmmm i don't we can stay
friends. He likes me too much.

Anyways, he was great to get my mind off my ex. I had
someone texting me and calling me and telling he likes me :)
It was nice. But, he isn't my rebound. If we make out by
accident, it will be for all the wrong reasons lol. Hey,
atleast I was honest! lol

Well, I might have lunch with him tomorrow :)