Ben

Stuff
2007-10-13 19:40:51 (UTC)

What I wanna say...

You use to have a conscience, what happened? You never talk
to me and im sick of trying... Bye, Susan.... I will never
go out with you again. I will never touch you again.. And I
hope that brings you pain; for a man like me to admit defeat
is insane. I love you and the painful part is- Is you were
probably stringing me along trying to keep my feelings in
tact all the while what was hurting me most was you trying
to spare my feelings.

You don't care... About anything. Or, at the very least
about me. You made that obvious. I hope you realize that you
will NEVER find someone who loves you as much as I do. I
hope you realize you will NEVER find ANYONE like me; I
treated you like a queen and i'd of done anything for you...
Then you go around and cheat on me... Turn around and lie
to me... And its obvious that you didn't care when you did
all that crap.

So have fun at your "party" or whatever. You never did any
of that shit until you met me...

I don't know why it has to be this way, but you made it this
way... And if you feel nothing at all when you read this-
Don't even bother arguing. You'll only make it worse on me;
when its ALL you. I'll find someone else who will treat me
like a human being, someone who has a heart- Someone the
complete opposite of you. Because your a cold bitch for
making me feel this way when I didn't do shit AT ALL.

My biggest fear is being alone and i'd rather be completely
alone than have that false sense of love in my heart because
it'll be ripped out and i'll feel this way again and i'd
rather be empty inside than remember all the times you said
you loved me, all the times we kissed.... And every lie you
told me. I'm really broken up inside but I will get over you.

The hardest part is that I didn't want to trust you and you
made me... Its that I don't open up to anyone and I did to
you and you threw it back in my face... I can't not trust
anyone again... But then again... Whomever I trust ends up
biting me in the ass in the end.....
________________________
Jessa... if you do eventually read this... Is there any
friends you know... Like.. Single ones... I don't know.. I
don't know where to meet anyone... I'm not hoping for
much... Just to meet new people.....

:-/




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