Violet

Allegations And The Things Left Behind.
2007-06-09 04:31:25 (UTC)

Wasting time


Money issues set aside, all drama has come to a stand
still. I've removed myself from all that bring it about
for pathetic amusement, which has helped a great deal. But
family wise.. all is calming. Attitudes and whiney
bullshit has been set aside. Possibly because of maturity,
or maybe people would rather just keep themselves in check
while around me (It's summer, i'm 9 months pregnant, big
as hell, and just a little short tempered sometimes).
Either way, I'm grateful.

I do tend to stress myself out though, but all based on
reasonable worries. 26 days until my due date and it's
just now hitting me at how difficult things are about to
become. But again, most are money issues.

Had another doctors appointment Thursday... no weight
gain in the last 2 weeks. Doctor didn't say anything
though, so I'm guessing it's no big deal. He seems to be
growing well. It sure as hell feels like it. Only gained
8lbs thus far, though it feels as if i'm caring a 20lbs
child. He's lacking the space to move as freely as he does
and i'm not sure which of us is suffering more as a result.

I wouldn't say i'm suffering.. it's just frustrating to
be as physically restricted as I seem to be. Dealing with
another U.T.I. supposedly, from laying on my right side
while i sleep. (weird i know.) He has the hiccups all the
time, and when he has the hiccups I get heartburn. You
know, because it's not bad enough that while he's jerking
around due to the hiccups.. i'm getting kicked in the ribs
constantly.. i have to feel sick as well the whole time.

Basically, i'm ready for this little punk to make his exit
from my body.

Decided on a first name finally, and narrowed down the
middle name to two possibilities. Though i'm sure many are
going to bitch about my selections.

A's little one was born on May 9th. Apparently things
didn't go all that smoothly. Strong contractions caused
the little one to have a bowel movement while still in the
womb, therefore he began ingesting the bowel movement.
Pleasant. He also had serious blood sugar problems which
lead to serious breathing problems. Crazy. A's old lady
went through hell as well too. But the little one was home
after a week or so, he's on oxygen, but doing well.
Thankfully. Checked out some pics of the litle one, and
he's all kinds of cute.. even though he looks just like
his daddy, lol.

A's asked for my home addy and home number.. says he's now
a big fan of snail mail interaction and thinks we should
pen each other regularly. And oddly enough now desires
phone conversations with each other. I guess that's fine,
a little out of character for us though.

Last 4 weeks of pregnancy and now i'm begining to crave
things. All of which are not healthy for me. At the
moment.. it would be a brownie.. or rather brownies.
Hmm, must find sweet baked good before bed.





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