Topsy Kretts

Breathing in the same sequence
2007-03-22 20:48:57 (UTC)

march 22 2007

today...something unexpected happened...all of a sudden
w/o
any reason at all...i felt like i had to reconcile with
Raffy...i dunno why or if i was really ready...or if it
was even necessary...i just texted him..."So what were you
saying sorry for again?....and how are you?" he called me
up right after..so now..we're back together again...only
this time...i'm feeling more...awkward...afraid i
guess...the last few weeks have been very traumatic
(ofcourse i didn't tell him exactly how)
Anyways..so...i thought i was gonna have a peaceful
sleep tonight....since...he's in my life again...what else
could go wrong? (tonight atleast)
a few minutes before 3am..i awoke from another
nightmare...this time..it was sorta entertaining
actually...(like my other "movie-like" nightmares...very
vivid and in full color!and the scenes aren't so hard to
remember either)...ofcourse...the nightmare comes usually
on the last scene...where everything starts to go
slowmo..and i start to feel the panic...tries to wake up
but couldn't...and as usual i always manage to snap out of
it...gasping for air and weakened muscles...and sometimes
(like tonight) a chill you feel to your bones. It's agood
thing to have someone to tell about it at once...(it helps
calm me down at a shorter period of time. Thanks to
Raffy..ooooh why do i always find you so useful at times
like these? =( am i such a wussie? a helpless little ol me
=( Oooooh I hate it when i have to need others.... but it
sure feels awful when you have no one who'll be beside you
when you feel afraid... =( it's such a complicated
existance!
nightmare:
characters- pretty japanese young adults, like the
characters from Ultraman Nexxus =D

main characters...2 girls and 2 boys (supposedly ..but the
other one got left behind and was never seen again)
something ( iforgot exactly what it was) happened to the 2
girls (wearing sch uniforms) (they got hit by
something...in a form of water i think) next thing i
saw...they were both lying on the floor...dying (i think).
the 2 boys are both supposed to save the girls..but
then...the other one scooped both girls from the floor and
started flying away....he's actually enjoying the whole
thing ( he must've felt like superman)....but the weight
of two girls are causing him to wobble a bit on air...but
he was determined to bring both girls to a safe
place...yes...there was a safe place..it's some kind of a
box....an opened box....all sides are down...and the
center is a neat interior of a well lighted...nice living
room....
he was able to reach the safe place...where he carefully
placed the other girl(blonde)(now wearing a pastel floral
printed dress)...unfortunately the other girl(brunette)
fell off before they reached the safe place...she fell
face down into a square well...(only her head was
submerged in the water)(suddenly she's wearing a darker
floral printed dress) she looked unconcious...but her eyes
were open...she's looking at the water down below...the
water is crystal clear..but she isn't moving and she's
starting to drown! Super japanese man tries to pull her
out..but it wasn't easy...and then there was a voice
saying "It's no use trying to save her...she's lured to
wielded wells"

In an instant the scene changed...both girls are standing
at the bottom of the square well the blond was holding the
brunette upright (brunette is unconscious)face to face...i
can't see the brunette's head, it looks stucked inside the
chest of the blond!
the blond (now looking wicked...still beautiful
but...there's a wicked look in her face)..turned to face
me (or the camera if this was a movie) saying:...."As long
as we both desire the same thing (one thing).... you can
never be happy!(I won't let you!)"

END

the voice started to sound blurry....scene goes slowmo...i
start to panic (i already know what's going on...it's all
turning into a nightmare)...it's getting more difficult to
breathe..felt like drowning..i had to force myself to wake
up..... as usual....i did....oh but i felt so weak...and
short of breath (as usual)...i was shivering when i woke up
i feel a cold chill all over my body....( not very usual
but i've experienced this for quite a few times already --
the *chills)


almost 5 am....i hope i can still get some descent sleep.
FGSFDS!


*SQUARE WELL---s a very simple problem consisting of a
single particle bouncing around inside of an immovable
box, from which it cannot escape, and which loses no
energy when it collides with the walls of the box.




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