Topsy Kretts

Breathing in the same sequence
2007-03-22 01:18:13 (UTC)

march 22 2007

everytime i close my eyes to try and sleep i'm sucked into
another nightmare..nightmare after nightmare...last
night...i had atleast three...til i got so afraid of going
back to bed...
I spent the whole night tossing and turning...and crying
and calling out his name..and staring at his picture on my
phone...i never loved any man this much before...i never
yearned or cried or died for anyone this long...
by past 3am i received a text message...the one i've
been waiting for...it says: I'm sorry I'm still here, if
you need anything just let me know".
i wanted to say "sorry for what? for leaving me to die
here?...thank you..but the one thing i need is the one
thing you can't give...your love". I preferred to stay
silent....i love him so much....and knowing he doesn't
love me... has already killed me in more ways than he'll
ever realize.
Without his love....I must say..everything has
perfectly ended...yet my love for him will go
on...forever...but he need not know about it...
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If only his message read this way: "I'm sorry.I'm still
here..I need you...I love you."...
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i must admire him for saying sorry......




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