blkdragon

grounded
2007-03-08 03:46:46 (UTC)

Love never ends, but it changes

3/7--8:30PM—I got a call from Charlotte at 5:38 this
morning, we had small talk about how much money she’d won at
the casino and the fact that she was just getting home, she
reiterated how Joe supplies her with gambling money and how
she puts 2/3rds of it away; she said she brought home $700.
I was listening to Charlotte with half an ear, I was
surprised that she called and I had things to do, she
realized she was interrupting my regularly scheduled routine
and said that she’d let me get prepared to go to work; she’s
bowling tonight and maybe I’ll hear from her. Ending our
conversation was strained, I normally tell her that I love
her, there was dead air while she waited to hear what didn’t
come; I’m sure that she gave my not professing my love to
her some thought. I don’t plan to invite her to return to my
home, this will probably be something new for her, she’s
always getting insubstantial propositions; what I had for
her was substantial to me. As far as I’m concerned,
Charlotte wasn’t as open with me as I was with her, I did
head into this situation with my eyes wide, I’m not giving
her the option of withholding information from me again; I
could just take from her what I want but that would make me
nothing less than the last man in her life.
I made it to work on time, while attempting to make
revisions at the press, the chain on the sheeting table
broke; I was sent to the Community to help Vic. When the
situation was concluded they got Gary to work in my stead, I
didn’t want to work the Community, that’s Jan’s domain and
she’s a slave driver; only because the men in her crew cow
tow to her. I grabbed my things from my press and asked Vic
how long his changes would take, if they took more than 25
minutes I’d go to lunch, they would and I did; I found Jimmy
outside and suggested that he punch out for lunch. Jan was
smoking outside and asked if Vic said it was ok to go to
lunch, I’m not asking anyone if it’s ok, I don’t care if the
press is running when I decide to take a lunch; I headed to
my car without acknowledging Jan’s presence again.
I saw Jan smoking again, as I exited my car, I merely
glanced at her in passing; Jimmy met me inside to tell me
that Jan inquired about Vic sending us to lunch. I told
Jimmy that I expected nothing less of Jan, Jan wants to make
every man pay for her being born without a dick, I headed to
my appointment at 3 and ran into Jan returning from another
cigarette; she looked at me and searched the area for a
clock. Jan had a confused look on her face when she said, “I
thought you worked 10 hour days”, I told her that I was
heading to an appointment and that I’d given Jack a complete
printout of my appointments for the month; I continued to
the clock without waiting for her to respond and I chuckled
all the way to my car!
I made it to my appointment, Dana and I discussed the recent
events with Charlotte, she agreed with my assessment and
decision; I told her how Charlotte has been hiding her body
and she told me that she’s not comfortable with hers either.
I told Dana that Bea had told me that she didn’t like her
breasts, hips or ass and Dana is slimmer than Bea and has
the same dislikes, she talked about wanting the perfect body
and I told her that there’s no such thing; there’s only the
body you have and you make the best of it. One could spend
their entire life wishing they were something they aren’t,
it’s a lot better to understand what you have, accentuate
the positive and then eliminate the negative; of course it’s
always easier said than done. I really like Dana!
Charles called this morning, he wanted to know if he could
get money for cigarettes, I never wanted him to smoke and
told him that I didn’t leave any money in the house; even if
I had I wouldn’t have given him any money for cigarettes, he
can get a job for that.
I went to Citi-financial, I submitted the forms for the
insurance company to pay out the months of January and
February, I plan to refinance my loan for the auto
protection and I’ll get to do that after those months are
paid for.
I came home and lay on the bed to nap, Pretty called and
that surprised me, I decided to soak and talk to her; we
brought each other up to speed and I liked the way she was
sounding. She told me about a new man in her life and I told
her what’s up with Charlotte, we’ll talk again soon. I
prepared my lunch for tomorrow, took care of my skates and
am charging my flash drive; I’ll decide what I’m wearing to
the rink and I’ll be ready to leave in the morning without
delays. I hope to be sleeping before my phone rings or
Charles comes in.




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