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RhoHome
2007-02-26 04:38:56 (UTC)

sweet potatoes

exactly three years ago i was having a very good day. i
was...16. going on 17. probly thought i knew all there was
to know. thought wrong. as most young people usually do. i
heard the other day that you don't finish maturing until
you're 30. do you ever really finish tho? there's always
so much to learn about everything. putting an ending on
growing up seems so wrong. the more you learn the more you
grow. today was not as good. my mama got food poisoning or
something and she didn't find this out until after she
hopped in the car with my dad and i to make the four hour
trip to santa barbara which turned into a 5 hour
adventure. she's tight tho. we took good care of her. i
guess that makes it an okay day. knowing at least she was
not alone in her illness. a good day. different from the
good day i had 3 years ago. but still good i now feel.
i think everyone does this, but i tend to have to hide
things about my life with a few people because i'm afraid
their opinion of me would change. at the same time i feel
like i shouldn't have to hide anything from anyone, but...
this time it's different. which is shouldn't be, but..what
can you do? things are going good. why risk losing all the
goodness. just be sly... for at least a little while.

How can you not look at the ocean off the 101 when you're
going up and down the coast? today it was the most
beautiful shade of gray. in my opinion the ocean is at
it's most beautiful when it's this color. it's deep and
dark, you can feel the rainy weather coming, but...it's
glorious. and when the waves crash on the coast they
still bubble and froth all white and the white contrasted
with the dark charcoal gray of the rest of the water
is...breathtaking. i do love when it shines a bright
sparkly blue but this... this is my favorite. call it
emo. maybe even ugly. but i have always loved finding the
beauty lying deep within the beast. ever since i was young
i'd look for the good in the bad, the glory in the simple.
it's always so much more beautiful to me to know that
something amazing is hidden somewhere people would not
normally look. i heart the underdogs. especially when
they prove the rest of the world totally wrong.

gonna go dance dance... fun fun.. hehe. ahhaha.




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