Angeline Rose

Love of the Loveless.
2007-02-24 03:02:45 (UTC)

Stumbling on my own road.

I can't move, I can't breathe.
Every second I lie awake it's all just too much to take.
I have everything, and at the same time nothing.
Every memory lurks in this house, and the ghost of my past
comes to visit my mind every now and again.
I remember this one convo with kyle, and he asked, "So how
you living here?"
and I said, "Forever"

Now I can't even see straight.
Why does money have to corrupt society?
Repossesing and taking away.
Why did dad have to take everything away?
He took my sanity and happiness.
And I love my dad so much,
and it's so hard not to point fingers at him,
when the truth is scattered everywhere in pieces.
Oh mommy, Oh daddy, where do the children stand?

I feel so empty.
So So So empty.
And I almost ran out of tears.
The milk is expired.
The juice has fungus balls in it.
The water is tap.
And the fridge water taste like fish.
Coffe makes my throat dry,
and blood tastes like quarters.

Oh dad,
does fattening apple pie and gallons of ice cream amke you
children happy?
DOES IT?
I miss you so much.
You don't even know.
I'm drowning myself in tears.
And you think, every single day, that I'm fine.
I can't take it.

Oh mom,
Please don't lie to me.
I can see the hurt in your eyes.

Oh God,
Please say you know what you're doing.
I don't know where the kids stand.
I can't just sit and watch as my life
just fall apart.
And Kevin is just too young to understand,
his mind is still developing, taking the world,
and absorbing it to add to his collection of knowledge.
He's just a kid.
He doesn't deserve this.
Why won't Robbie visit anymore?
Why doesn't RJ call?
Why is everything so weak?
I'm putting all my faith in you Lord.
I have nowhere to turn.




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