Aa-chan

Diary of a Deranged Fangirl
2007-01-29 13:10:56 (UTC)

Ugh Another Awful Monday

Much like Garfield, I hate Mondays. Well truth be told, I
hate any day that I have to come to this job. Next Monday
I have jury duty. Unlike most normal humans who go
through great lengths to get out of jury duty (See entry
titled Aa-chan Juror no. 10), I'm trying to get into it.
See I'd far rather sit on some stuffy jury then come into
work. But I know this time I probably won't be picked or
if I am picked it will probably be for another damn murder
trial. That was quite terrible last time.

But the point is how sick is that that I'd rather sit on a
jury then come to work?! Just show the state of affairs
regarding my current employer and myself. But much like
when I decided to finally leave Bill, I will be leaving
here too.

Part of the problem is I need a long term goal to strive
for. I have no clue what it is that I want to be when I
grow up. And I know that saying from that movie The Big
Kahuna "Some of the most interesting people I know didn't
know what they wanted to be when they were 20 and some of
THE most interesting people still didn't know at 40", yes
I know that is true, but I need something I could possibly
do with myself in the long term.

I don't want to be a mindless pencil pushing monkey for
the rest of my life. And I certainly don't want to keep
working at jobs like this, where I'm far too under
appreciated. I'm not saying that you have to say thanks
for all your hard work everyday, but at least pretend to
be grateful for all the hard work and toil I put in. And
if I'm unhappy and wish to leave, don't put me on some
idiotic probationary period to decide "If you want this
job or if we want to just part ways." Bite me!

What you should have tried to do was finding out what the
root of my problem is and work to fix it or at a low try
to make it better. Not I tell you what the root of the
problem is and you tell me in a nutshell, "so what". What
the crap kinda message is that?! What kind of suck ass
employer are you?! But as I've been told, this is what
happens in this company. Look here's the bottom line, I'm
not happy and it seems there is no compromise to either of
our situations. I will do my work peacefully until
Katsucon (Which I'll be calling out sick to attend) and
after Katsucon, I will start sending my resume out to
various places that are hiring. Both here in the
Philadelphia area and in Charlottesville VA.

And since we're on the topic of Charlottesville here's the
deal with this. As I've said I will not move there
without the following three things; a job, a place to
live, and a driver's license. I have been looking into
places to live, but with such horrifying credit it is
very, very doubtful anyone will give me an apartment (with
the exception of maybe a mega slumlord).

What I need to do is start regularly paying on BOTH
student loans and at least appearing to be a financially
responsible person. Which I am, it's just sometimes I get
a little thrown off the path and I let things spiral out
of control (Something about myself I should strive to
change). But I should start doing that soon.

About the driver's license, that's probably the easiest of
the tasks that I could accomplish. All I have to do is
get my doctor to fill out the driver's licenses form. For
those of you who don't live in PA, they make you take a
physical before taking the written test here. I do have
an appointment with a doctor, no my sweet Dr. Lang with
some other doctor, who I'm not sure will fill out the form
for me. But if I can get someone to fill out the form,
the ball will be firmly in my court. I have the PA ID
card and the other thing I need, which I can't remember
what it is, and then I'll be able to at least take the
written part of the test.

*Yawn.....*

Man I'm tired... I had another bout of work related
insomnia this morning. I woke up at about 3:50 and
couldn't go back to sleep. Yet another sign that it's
time to go... Speaking of time to go, I have some things
I wanna look up online before I have to begin, so let me
hit the road.

Again I'm going to skip the woo-hoo/ barf bit cause it's
nanimonai in either case.

Current Song: Rammstien's Adios (how very appropriate)




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