blkdragon

grounded
2007-01-10 06:11:56 (UTC)

Chapter X Scene Y

Love isn’t supposed to enslave and yet I feel enslaved to my
loved ones, time to break free! I'd decided to wear the
chain I bought to signify respect to my ancestors, it's
heavy, silver and the links are knotted like a noose, with
rings that signify the chains they bore; I thought it highly
appropriate!
1/9--11:07PM—I got to the rink just after they opened, as I
booted up Charlotte called, I hadn’t planned to talk to her
and I’m sure she read my emails; what I said (obviously)
wasn’t as important as her wanting me to listen to her being
angry. She mentioned checking the man’s messages, yes it’s
her phone service and she could do that, but if you’re
looking for dirt you’re going to find it; then what?
She’s found that the woman Billy is seeing can spend time
with his Daughter, at first she was wondering how many
people were laughing at her, I told her that nobody was
laughing at her; I told her that Billy was showing his
Daughter what a man shouldn’t be like. To be honest, if
anyone were laughing at Charlotte, it would be Billy.
Charlotte was thinking about Billy’s ex, how she didn’t want
Charlotte anywhere near her child and here this other woman
could be with Billy’s Daughter without a problem, this gave
Charlotte serious things to concern herself with.
Charlotte was now thinking that this woman has been in
Billy’s life for quite some time, so she’s not good enough
to develop a personal relationship with “her man’s”
Daughter, in essence; he was still cheating on his woman
with Charlotte. How could she not see what was always under
her nose? Charlotte is having the locks changed on her
doors, she suspended service on the phone he has and if
she’s stupid enough to actually accept any explanation Billy
gives, then she deserves everything she gets.
Now that she had me on the phone I had to listen to her, I
wouldn’t not answer the phone when she calls and I expected
her to call, just not while I was at the rink and she had to
hear the music playing; I thought I should have the phone in
case Kathy or Charles called.
Charlotte has now learned what I and others have been
telling her, she’s only learned what she chose not to see. I
got angry and very animated talking to her, I noticed Patty
watching me having this conversation, wondering whom I was
talking to. Charlotte eventually decided to let me do what
I’d come to do and got off the phone, I told her that I’d
call her later, I was sure that she wanted me to; even if I
wasn’t that excited about doing so.
Patty would eventually come talk to me, she wanted to
discuss my surgery and I’d show her that I was still bruised
beneath my skin, she convinced me to sit with her and I went
on a rant about my problems; she said I was quite worked up
and I was. I also mentioned Charlotte, Patty asked a couple
of questions she wanted the answers to, she tried to play it
off because she knew her questions were personal; she still
wanted to hear my answers to them. I think one of the
questions concerned my Son and the other was how old
Charlotte was, I think Charlotte’s age surprised her; I
believe she expected me to be talking to someone younger
than she.
I left the rink and called Charlotte, she seemed to be
feeling better, I even got her to laugh; I talked to her
while I drove to Kathy’s. When I told Charlotte that I was
driving, she voiced her concerns about my having a possible
problem with the police, I told her not to worry about that;
I knew that being with me was healthy for her. Without me,
Charlotte would only have her own misery to keep her
company, I didn’t want her to be miserable; she told me that
she’d bought herself a dozen roses and I thought that a good
idea.
I was now in Albany and Charlotte said goodbye. I pulled
into the parking lot at Kathy’s and rang the bell, she
buzzed me in. Charles wasn’t at the apartment, he’d asked
his Mother to call if I arrived, he was across the street;
this didn’t seem to be starting off well. I wasn’t happy and
told Kathy so, I mentioned not appreciating throwing $400
down the drain, she began talking to me about our Son and
how she saw that he was trying to run away from his problems.
Charles came in while I talked to his Mother, I told him
what was going to happen if he came to my place and asked if
he understood and if it would be a problem for him, he
understood and would accept my conditions; I also told him
that any infraction would be cause for eviction. We would
eventually find ourselves having the discussion we should
have had years ago, Kathy sat quietly and only spoke if I
cursed; I would convince Charles to stay and help his Mother.
We poured our hearts to each other, the talk exhausted me
and when we were finished we reached out to hug one another,
we didn’t want to let go; I kissed my Son a couple of times
and told him that I was tired and needed to go home. I told
him to call me if he needed me, I extended that option to
Kathy as well, she walked me to the door; “I’m proud of
you”, she said.
I thought she was talking to Charles, “you talking to me?”
“Yes, I’m proud of you!” That is the only time Kathy has
ever said that to me, I grinned and told her that I was
tired and I needed to go home, “if you need anything; call
me.” “Thank you”, she said and I headed for my car, I didn’t
turn around and I felt her watching me for a couple of
seconds before closing her door.
I got in my car and felt like crying, the feeling would come
over me like waves until I got home, I’m not sure if it was
because of my feelings for my Son or Kathy’s sincerity. I
thought about calling Charlotte, I’m sure she wanted to know
how things went, I was exhausted and didn’t want to discuss
it; she and I will probably talk tomorrow. I’m not planning
to call Charlotte though.
I’d expected to hear from Kim tonight, that didn’t happen. I
spoke to Sheridan tonight and asked if we could talk
tomorrow, he said yes, Anne’s Father is in the hospital and
that talk may happen tentatively.




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