Angeline Rose

Love of the Loveless.
2007-01-03 02:39:42 (UTC)

FUCK.

This family I sware to God;
it's the biggest bull shit encountered in life.
IT'S FAKE.
FAKE SMILES.
FAKE BULLSHIT.

LIESLIESLIESLIESLIESLIES.


NO ONE GETS IT;
THIS EFFECTS ME MORE THAN IT DOES ANYFUCKINGONE ELSE.
IM OLD ENOUGH TO FEEL PAIN
TOO YOUNG TO UNDERSTAND STUPIDITY


The truth?

What happened when your two favorite people are suffering
of eachother, and the number one killer in america? Money?
It seems like the economy is the most important thing
here.

Sometimes you want to go back before you really expirenced
drama.
The pain that causes us to suffer, but you can't because
according to the law of time&life itself, it's physically
impossible, except to travel way back into your dreams.
But you can't control your dreams, or what you're going to
dream.

Seems like all we care about is how much money we have, &
not if you're with your family or not.
Even a child, younger than 8, can tell us it's important
to be with your family. They're what keeps us going.
Money doesn't keep us going. The people in Life keeps us
going.

Money only lead to greediness.
It lead to tears of sorrow from the eyes of the young and
old.

Seems like, in my point of view, being the child, torn
between two parents, that the thing I should be worrying
about is the truth. Who is right, and who is wrong
. And in my view, we are all wrong. We are all under this
spell of this ludicrous mess. I want you to say, "Money is
what keeps us going", because that's what it looks like.

If you truly care about family, you wouldn't care where in
this world we lived,
just as long as we';re together. You say this money-
making is to make us happy, but to be honest, It's just
causing pain.
The stress brings tears.
The waste brings Years.

The next thing you know, we're GLAD ot be out of the house.
Glad to be out of this grasp we've been held in for so
long.

It's ironic I found the meaning of life,love & family
before my own parents.
They're sucked into this game where I refused to show
them the way out, 'til now.

I've kept my feelings in for so long, now I don't think I
can take it anymore.

I am tired. And I know you both are too, But listen to
what I have to say, before you judge my views.

"Money isn't love.
It never loved you back.
Look back to the times where we could all trust eachother.
Bck to the times where we went out as a FAMILY,
not a burdened chore to feed their children"

Look at Uncle Dan,
I don't think his children and wife couldn't be any
happier.
Just because they have more riches,
doesn't make the mhappy.
The fact they spend time with eachother and
COMMUNICATE LIKE NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS

I envy their relationship.

It's always: Parents at work, then they're home.
They go out, we stay in.
We get yelled at for not doing our chores,
& I am not acknowledged for doing them.
Then me, listening to what they both have to say.

I've said it so many times I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT.

I'm tired of hearing hate,
I'm tired of this mess.
I'm tired of thinking I'm doing something wrong,
I'm tired of thinking of good guys and bad guys.

I had to put my thoughts in letters I'd never send,
Because when I open my mouth, it's always
"So and so is EVIL. So and so is just DINKING. So and so
is just WASTING. So and so DOESN'T CARE.
Don't get mad at me, it's so and so's fault! I have
problems to! To you it's always friends friends friends."
So I Don't wanna talk.
Because I can't.
So if yo uwant to talk to me.
Talk to me with "so and so" around.
I'M SICK OF THIS PAIN THAT TEARS ME APART.
Be together, or apart.
But please don't deny what I say.
Think about it thurally,
And then tell me what you think.

I just miss my family.
Not these people I live with now.
It's so broken apart.
I`m tired of a family one month,
and enemies the next.
It hurts me that I've been so happy because my parents
are together;
And it hurts the most when they're apart right after i
smile.

"If you never know truth,
You never know love"




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