HangmanTheory

My Ruined Reputation
2006-12-29 01:36:00 (UTC)

Fucking Bullshit

I don't even know where to start with this one. It's all a
big fucking mess. I've lost my best friend, possibly my
boyfriend too, over one simple fucking lie,
misunderstanding, whatever you want to call it.

So last night after I got off work I went to a party at my
friend Yob Yob's house with DJ, Jasmin's boyfriend. Jasmin
couldn't go so it was just us. So we get there and we
start drinking like anyone would expect us to do, and oh,
shock and horror, we got shitfaced. Yob had a bunch of
techno playing and I wanted to dance. So I danced with
DJ...JUST DANCED. Nothing more. Danced. That's it.

Anyways, so apparently while I was dancing, Jen was in the
other room calling Jasmin, telling her that DJ and I were
pretty much fucking. Ok, well that's not true at all. Do
you hear me, AT ALL!!! Nothing happened!

So a few hours later Jen and the other people took off and
left me DJ and Yob with the whole fucking house to clean
up. So I go to my wallet to get my 20 out so I can go buy
food. Guess what? IT'S WASN'T FUCKING THERE! And please
realize that Jen is a tweaker and has been known for doing
things like this. I'm not putting the blame all on her
because I know that there were other people who could have
done it too, but that's just the first thing that came to
my mind.

I had no idea about Jen making the phone call, so in the
morning I was perfectly fucking happy. That didn't last
too long unfortunately. Hearing about the call was like a
punch to the face, stomach, head, and where ever else a
punch can hurt.

Well, skipping all that, when we got back into Fallbrook,
Jasmin was in town and I tried to talk to her but she
wouldn't talk to me. So I went home and then she called my
mom on her cell phone telling her that I had gone to that
party last night, and then succeeded in getting me
grounded for a month.

Then I guess she called Dusty and told him all this shit.
I don't fucking want to lose Dusty, or Jasmin for that
matter. Dusty is the best thing that ever happened to me
and I feel like a fucking horrible person right now. But I
can't change the past I guess.

This all seems like a horrible dream. I keep sitting and
thinking that I'm going to wake up any second now, but it
never happens.

I don't even think I should say anymore.

But Dusty...I love you and I hope you know that I would
never do anything intentionally to hurt you at all...But I
can't form your opinions, and I'm sorry.


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