Dazz

Dazz
2006-12-18 12:57:44 (UTC)

The 21th Year

Feels like a moment to ponder things learned, things
gained and insights.
Lots of anxiety. I lost myself alot to overwhelming
worry. Need to let it go, the tension of things going
wrong. Be me, the fun Saggitarious. Feels so much better
this way. Free within myself :)
Losen my grip on fear, relax a bit. Enjoy. 21!

Found this new song from a new band Hellogoodbye called
Here In Your Arms. Frees the spirit, I'm enjoying it

Danielle and I have rekindled our friendship, it's a
wonderful path to journey away from solo. Her daugther
Cicielia turned one on the 12th. Also, a military wife,
Michele and I have started a new friendship. Talked a bit,
went to a movie The Holiday. It was fun mmm Jude Law and
his eyes...

Recap
Was pregnant, had miscarriage.. and a surgury to 'clean
me out' was sad, deeply.. for a time. Bryan was close for
me through it all. Hadn't been so vulnerable for a long,
long time.
Phnemonia for a time. X-rays to get tomorrow , maybe its
not gone? Bryan has new comp, he should enjoy himself
while home. Got a tree for Christmas, starting to feel
like we're building something.
Johnny has surgury for a broken rod. New support device
in there now. He's home already!


Lost in the freedom of this song

Lyrics "Here In Your Arms"

i like where we are
when we drive in your car
i like where we are
here

cause our lips can touch
and our cheeks can brush
our lips can touch
here

i like where you sleep
when you sleep next to me
i like where you sleep
here

where you are the one, the one that lies close to me
whispers, "hello, i've missed you quite terribly"
i fell in love, in love with you suddenly
now theres no place else i can be but here in your arms

Kindof a synth pop band. Started when they were joking
around with friends.

Thoughts alot about Bryan going away. I know we will
deal. I am strong enough, I have what it takes to his wife.
I'm going to get married with him. Becoming more content
with that, fear had driven all goodness from it. Not of
him, no, I love him tho the word love seems too petty and
cliche.
Still negitive feelings to deal with on that issue, his
going away I mean. Hard to sort it out, or to ever sum it
up. Don't think there are the words for it.. for once in
my life I've found something I could not explain or deal
with with words.

Thought came to me today.. more like an epiphany
Whats the difference between wanting to change youself
and being someone else

It's the feeling when thought has mellowed out. Serenity
when naked feet in the cool water, the sun pouring down,
mountains high overhead... small breeze in the trees..
The feeling when I dream of vacations on the white sand,
surf coming up onto the sand, hammock in place.. sun
warmth.. feeling nature around you, through you, it is you
connected peaceful
complete, whole, free

I am free

Free to me :
No fear
Content
Complete
Connected
Thoughtless
No negitivity, no positvity.. nothing
Like dancing

nothing you could hold onto, just smile when it wraps
around you
thankful for it coming







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