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-Masquerade-
2006-10-29 03:48:16 (UTC)

Tiffy's Diary-The unknown chapter 26

How many day's have i been wasting my time ...
thinking of the past.
Looking forward that all the past will become the present.
One day, i realised that
all the past can only become present in dreamz.
Everything i wrote in this diary has become history.
I don't know what can i do....
i am still sitting here..
reading the past posts and comments..
and cry.(how useless i am)
In this diary, i can feel that how lucky i was.
I can feel that how she used to care for me.
I can feel that how my friends used to treat me.
I can feel that all were true feelings, not fake.
I can sense the friendship between Janice and me.
I can sense all kinds of love in this diary.
The comments in this diary are too precious for me delete.
Too memorable for me to forget.
Now, everything i wrote in this diary would not come back,
cause everyone has gone.
I have learn lots from Janice,
From her cm,
i know myself more.
From =.= 's reply,
I know that she once cared for me.
It was me who did not figure it out.
Now, it is just too late to regret.
Cuz, i am a F.3er , not a little F.1 or F.2.
Most importantly, she will never teach me again
And she only like F.1 and F.2z (clever ones only).
So she will not care for a little girl who is not clever
and have nth related to her.
As she has loads of F.1 and F.2 for her to look after.
Who will care for a normal girl who is just wearin' a
masquerade like other people do?
Who will notice a normal girl who is just the same as other,
putting on a beautiful but heavy masquerade?

The past was that when i put my masquerade away.
The present is that when i put my masquerade on again.

It is the school who force us to do that,
It doesnt give us the choice to be our own,
It just force us to be their obedient students,
just have good results, dont have any comments on anything.
It is going to be over.
school is just a temporary place.
But with everlasting memoirs.

Afterall,
this whole post is just written by a ordinary girl.
This post will become the past.
In this diary,
all the things i wrote,
is when i take off the masquerade
showing the true me to myself.
If u just find out urself being so lucky to see the girl
who took off her masquerade,
Plz leave comments.
Xanga is just a place to trick those dumb teachers who
track my xanga, telling that i am very normal.
Even the xanga which i purposely open for my teacher as i
dont want her to worry and let her know what i am and then
leave me alone.
Now , i dont mind cuz everyone has already leave me, all
alone. I just happen to find a very beautiful masquerade ,
hide my sadness.

-Masquerade put on-




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