Ms. R

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2006-05-16 16:22:26 (UTC)

Interim Thoughts- 5-16--06

Just for the heck of it, I read some diaries that only have
ONE entry...some that were started a year or more ago, a
couple that were posted to a couple months ago...but
obviously abandoned.

It doesnt surprise me how many women put on a happy face
for their friends and/or family, but deep down they are a
miserable as they come. And they dont know HOW it could
have happened....how THEIR life, which was supposed to be
near perfect could have gotten SO fucked up? Between
husbands who look at porn or spend every dime on toys or
gambling to spoiled kids, to being tired of doing all the
housework and not getting any help, to being fat or broke
or unemployed, to being bored or being TOO busy, to being
stuck on pain killers and seeing a shrink every 2
weeks.....well, you get the idea. Hey, thats LIFE... it
happens to the best of us. Good intentions do NOT a happy
life make. You do the best you can. If you cant, you end
the situation and find a better one. Some people believe
that we LIVE in pergatory and that there is only paradise
after death. If thats true, I intend to make pergatory as
pleasant as I can, since I really dont know whats to come.
I know a lot of people just come here to vent. But I
honestly believe its good for you to talk about your
life....even if it only to yourself HERE. I wish those
women had come back and kept posting. Maybe they think it
didnt help. Technically, no it didnt. But I have a feeling
it DID help in some way or they wouldnt have done it. I
wonder how all those women are doing now?

The thing that gets ME, though, is those people who think
having KIDS is the glue to hold a relationship together. If
anything, all they do is make it MORE difficult to make it
better. I applaud women that wait awhile to have
kids...give the relationship some time to calm down and see
if it can survive. Now I admit I was pregnant when I got
married. I wouldnt trade my son for ANYTHING, but he was
NOT meant to come into the world when he did. I had planned
that my ex and I spend SOME years together before we had
kids. It didnt work out that way. But most post marital
pregnancies ARENT accidents. And my son wasnt meant to
be "glue".

I rarely read diaries where the poster is truly HAPPY with
their life. So does that mean if you are happy you dont
need to relay your experiences? I relay the good as well as
the bad. I want to remember it ALL. Good or bad, its still
MY life...even if it IS in purgatory :)




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