CrimsonTears

Hollow Years
2006-05-12 14:51:28 (UTC)

Now leave me forever and i was so glad to meet you..But now you're gone

Hmm
I feel so meh :( i have to go out tonight..First it's
annas then to officers then to fever then to the lux then
to maximes..it's just whey too much for me too handle..
Yesterday simon got all angry with me because i had kyle
on my name..and said u hurt me /3 bye and went offline :
(..it really annoyed me and i got all angry and punched
the wall which kind of killed me lol..
I rang him and he just wouldn't talk and said i just don't
like seeing it there and put the phone down.. :(
I really cant be bothered getting upset anymore..like
today i've come home seen his name and im just thinking to
myself well that will be about heather and meh im just
hurting myself with it all..anyway he started talking to
me again..he said for the record im not seeing anyone
cause someone told me he was for a day or something..i
told him about me moving..but to be honest he didn't seem
to care..but he said he believes me now that i care he's
ill because i really do..
I just want to be good friends again to be honest and it's
not happening :(..maybe he thinks if he talks to me too
much ill start getting all meh cause i want him bak but to
be honest i just want to be friends and thats it...If he
talks to me im gonna ask does he want me to go to his
house on monday for a bit..
Karl..said like goodbye last night because his g/f won't
let him takl to me anymore..it was horrible and i was
crying alot :( he said he would never hurt me but that was
obviously a lie..i still believe everyone leaes you :(..
I love Kyle so damn much! whey
Ermm i wore a skirt today i looke horrible in them but meh
it was whey to warm not to..I felt like i was in a hotel
onholiday last night it was that hot.
Leeds; oh i so can't wait and loads of peopel i didn't
know about are going..it's gonna be sOOO good.
I was watching this film i d/l last night called Match
Point and it is soooo rubbish lol i cant stand to watch it
till the end but i wil try to.
I went to the park after college today..it was extremly
sunny and good..although i don't know why but my head just
went into the past and all i could think about was when i
was there with simon and meh it was just making me feel a
bit meh so i came home..plus i need to decide what i'm
gonna where tonight
Lindsay and Emma arn't coming out it's not fair i've not
seen them in a while :( and it's not good.
I love my lindsay and emma i doo =]
I'm listening to all my old cd's its gooood
Anyway yeah got everything of my mind now so ill go..

Song: Lighthouse family - i wish
Mood: Kind of missing friendships with people..but i'll
smile anyway
Love: Lindsay yeah




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