Grace

40 acres and a jag
2006-05-01 20:17:03 (UTC)

indecision and confusion

i just read an article about two south afrikan women
getting married. i've never really quit thinking about
women, but i don't know if i could ever have a
relationship another woman would want as me.

once i read about asexual couples. they maturbated or just
plain abstained. i only have sexual feelings if i'm
daydreaming about a crush. admittedly, the diabetes have
shot up most of my nerve endings. i can regain the
sensitivity, but it'll be a year or something. maybe
that's why i'm living a celibate life. well, the peri-
menopause isn't helping either.

i really like seeing the loving ladies together. it's so
sweet, and i could really see myself sitting and writing a
love story about it. that's the only kind of romance i
want to see in my life. and it'd be great impetus to write
like before.




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