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The Common Thread
2006-04-20 00:15:26 (UTC)

star witness.

it was thought at one point during the semester that my film teacher and i
had a "gazing" thing going on. he is a mid-forties film buff who wears three-
piece suits and walks with a cane. it was more of a game than anything. i
have no desire to be intimately involved with this man. he's just so damn
smart. and funny. anyway, we were pretty much in love.

until today when he was passing out tests. he called my name and i walked
to the front and he said, "jessica? you look familiar. have i taught you
before?"

he just thought that i was a student of his at one point or another. his gazes
that originally were full of desire are now understood to be his attempt at
placing my face. he just thought he recognized me. my spirits fell a little,
and then i kicked myself with a little pep-talk that went something like this:

"hey, you big douchebag. you weren't trying to date him. it's okay." anyway,
i guess film class will just be a little more lackluster for the remainder of the
semester.

i decided that my new plan is to not fall in love with every boy that i meet.
not that i do that anyway, i just tend to get too interested in the conquest. i
believe that adopting this type of mindset is a healthy decision for me. i am a
big old mess, for the most part.

tom got a new job today. he is moving to a better work environment, making
more money, working closer to home. his life changes are definitely making
me feel stir crazy. not that i want a different job. i love my job. i just want
something new and different than this same old routine. point blank, i need
a damn vacation.

tonight i am taking him to dinner at the righteous room in celebration. i am
excited that someone in our group of friends is making some sort of
progression. he is also cruising some babe at the bar, so hopefully i'm giving
him a wonderful celebratory gift. he will never admit it to me.

i can't stop listening to neko case. seeing her the other night reminds me of
the necessity of live shows. she is one of the only good examples of this. i
have listened to her albums for quite some time now, but i hadn't appreciated
them as much as i do now. the woman could bring the house around me
down with one high c. it hurts my heart a little.

alright. dinnertime.




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