carmur

The Journey
2006-04-15 23:35:33 (UTC)

16th April 2006

I have been told today by my Fil that my hubbys brother who
seperated from his wife in November(they have 3 girls) and
has been seeing a girl for about 3mths .....she is pregnant
with twins and goes for a termination on the 18th !!

Why am I so hurt by this when pregnancy and other things
before havent really phased me

I am thinking all kinds of things if she would carry them I
would love them and paying them to keep the little lifes
growing and we would bring them up I think Im going insane

I told hubby I dont want to talk to them or see them both

She is polish and after the termination is flying home as
if that is the end of it I hope they are both hauted by it
for the rest of there lifes

I found out on thursday I have 2 unidentified objects in my
uterus and may need a biopsy what I would do to swap wombs
right now

Sorry I am bitter and this is a low post I just hope that I
stop feeling this way I cant talk without crying




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