Dragongirl20989

Soul Flares
2006-04-02 02:47:50 (UTC)

Emotional Roller Costers

Today was a crazy day. not crazy in a good way, crazy in a
rip-out-my-heart-and-dance-the-cha-cha-on-top-of-it way.
Which if you couldn't guess; is bad. Kiki really messed up.
I love her, but she did mess up. Plain and simple. She spent
the night at Dusty's and didn't tell her dad. She lied about
where she had been, and got herself in a deep whole, one
that it will take a long time to get out of.

She went to the dance/carnival at school, then to the
Biltmore with Cori. Afterwards they went back to Cori's
house, where Kiki then got picked up by a girl named
Stephany. She then went back to the biltmore and met up with
Dusy, and spent the night at his house. Only she couldn't
tell her Dad that, for obvious reasons. So at around 9:30 I
get a call from her, and she asks to come over.

Of course I say yes. She gets here and she looks awful,
depressed, scared, and upset. I get her a drink and ask her
what's wrong, and she tells me. She asks me what to do, what
to tell her father. I don't know; so I tell her we'll have
to talk to my Mom, and ask for help. Which we do, and my Mom
says that she will tell Kiki's father that she stayed the
night at my house.

We do tell him that; and Kiki cries on my shoulder, and
shakes from fear, because her father was angery on the
phone, and he was angery when she got picked up, and he's
always angery. I was scared for her too. Terrified that he
might hurt her. I'd never forgive myself if something
happend to her; never.

So she goes home, with her angery father. Megumi, my Mom, my
Father, and I all go to Nicks party(he just turned 6!). That
was fun, Megumi took a bunch of pictures, and got to learn
about pinatas. It was fun, but I couldn't stop thinking,
worrying about Kiki. After that Cori Megumi and I all went
to PV mall.

It was loads of fun. We shopped and shopped, and talked, and
laughed, and had a great time. But both Cori and I were sad,
and upset and worried about Kiki. I still am. I'm so scared
and worried about her. I love Kiki, and I swear that if
something bad happens to her, I would NEVER EVER forgive
myself. I just couldn't. I wish so badly I could be
stronger, or better, or something. That I could be anything
so I could help her more.

I don't know how else I can help her though. I was her
shoulder to cry on, I was there for her, I held her, I lied
for her, and covered for her, and did everything I could.
But I feel like it wasn't enough. All I can do is pray it'll
all be ok. That her father wont hurt her. I swear if he does
. . . I just pray that doesn't happen. She has nowhere to go
if it does. God help me; please. God help Kiki.




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