Unseen Scars..
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2006-03-30 22:47:43 (UTC)

You don't love me, you don't care.

She said she loved me so what happened? Why did she change
her mind? It hurts. I feel sick. I can't
concentrate. Why? You have to understand, she was perfect
to me, absolutely perfect. Someone who to me was the only
girl I would ever want or need. Someone who I can be
completely myself with. She is so beautiful and amazing
too. I should never have gotten this close to her. I knew I
would end up falling. And I have. Hard.
Tom says i need to forget her, i know he's right. But I
don't think I will be able to. Not right away at least. I
love her so much. How can I just turn that off? How do you
just stop being in love with someone? How?
I'm so mad at her right now. For the past year ish she's
been saying how great everythings been, that she loves me
more than she's ever loved anyone. Bollocks. If you love
someone you don't hurt them like this. You don't ditch them
for someone else. I feel like every word she ever said to
me is complete crap. A lie. All of a sudden i'm nothing to
And you know the worst thing? she's fine, she's happy,
she has a new excting relationship to look forward too. and
what do i have? pfft. My heart is breaking. Again. I've
been here before and the pain is all too familiar. I've
sworn i wouldn't end up here again. It's just not worth it.
But here I am right back where I started from. Wanting
someone who doesn't want me. Why do I keep doing this? Why
do I keep starting relationships that I know will end up
It never works out the way I want it to. I don't think it
ever will. I'm done trying. I think I need to cry. But i
won't. She doesn't deserve that.

In other news, some woman sued a school for giving her a
farting chair.. oh thats hillarious.

Alan Carr is the funniest.

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