Beadgirl

I am out of ideas
2006-03-09 16:26:42 (UTC)

Why is the weather always crappy on THURSDAYS?!

It's the one day a week that I have to go somewhere, and
it's always crappy. Tom just told me that it's starting
to rain outside, and I know that that means it's going to
freeze up later when MJ and I have to go to Paul Smiths,
argh...

And speaking of MJ. I called her last night like I said I
would, and she sounded strange. We chatted for a few
minutes, and I asked her if everything was alright, and
she said, no, and then she said, "Can I call you
tomorrow?" And her tone just gave me flashbacks to when P
or D would call me at the shop or at home and say, "We
need to talk. Can you come in next week?" And it was
like, great, another week of waiting, and dreading
whatever it was they were going to hit me with that day.
Christ. So, now I wonder what's wrong with MJ, if there's
something that I did that she's not telling me about, or
if I did something that pissed her off, or if I didn't do
something that pissed her off. I know she's having a hard
time with her dad, and her son, and I don't know if it's
something there or something with me. I always assume the
worst, I always assume that it's me.

Working in the basement this morning on my presentation
for tonight, and Tom kept coming in and asking me
questions about things, and then the furnace guy came, and
I had to take Moose upstairs so that he didn't try to kill
the furnace guy, and when Tom came back downstairs to talk
to me again, I just about jumped down his throat. I
didn't mean to, but it's just that I feel like when I'm
trying to work at home, it's not as important as when I'm
working at the Village. Like it's not something to be
taken as seriously, because it's just mine. Whatever.
And just now, he told me he has to shut down the oil
burner because there's thick grey and black exhaust coming
out of the chimney. Great. Guess I'll go back upstairs
and forget about trying to get any more work done today...

Sent a response to P and D today, and all but told them to
get their shit together.

Wish I would hear from MJ.




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