heatherrrrrrrr

ching-ching!!!!
2006-03-03 06:39:13 (UTC)

maybe we're not normal...

ok..i never really thought of myself as..high class..but
its finally occuring to me that i might be..i mean
especially after the talk with my dad tonight..i mean for
one..i bought a coach bag..but i just bought it cause its
the only one that caught my eye in the store..but come to
find out..its like top of the line..i never knew that..i
feel kinda dumb..but like..i dunno..i feel like im
bragging but i dont even think anyone reads this
diary..but i mean..ive always known that my family was
full of important ppl but it never really crossed my mind
about things..like the fact that i have a condo on the
boardwalk in OC..or the fact that i dont like sinbad bc
hes an asshole..oh i can go on n on about that boy..if you
really think hes funny go n meet him..my parents fuckin
told him about how i "dont get along with them" n shit n
how i "still live with them" n hes like "well shell never
know the real side of her parents until she GETS OUT!!" i
really dont think thats funny..i think he thinks hes so
fuckin hysterical that he dont know that hes really just
fuckin talkin shit..but i mean besides that..if i wanted
to..and asked..i could probably meet any celebrity i
wanted to..i like that..i mean i met one before but that
was awhile ago..i dont even know her name..but my family
meets anyone they want..i mean they even had fuckin dinner
with someone..i dont know who she is either lol..i dont
really listen to their kinda music..but i mean..i know we
got street names named after us..we already bought land to
be buried in this gravesite near my grandparents..i dunno
its just...i feel kinda priveleged..i dont know how to
spell it..but i mean..its true what they say though..money
doesnt make you happy..cuz if you talked to me..you would
know im not happy..and seriously..having no job drives you
nuts..oh n the lil motto i made up a few yrs ago..
"ima carr, that means i dont cook, clean OR work"
i like it..but the thing is..the only food i actually CAN
cook is spanish food..n im not even spanish..but the thing
is that my family evaluates everyone..if hes white..if he
has a good job..how long hes been there...what kinda car
he drives..how much he gets paid..yea..but i dont think i
fit in..i never had a bf that met every requirement..i
mean..i havent had many bfs just bc im just too
picky...yea i admit it..im too fuckin picky but i mean
they didnt make alot of money..i never worried about that
but they do..i mean i thought i was gonna be killed when i
got my nose n tongue pierced..and yea..i got the cold
shoulder but they forgave me..but im still not happy..i
love who i am..but i just fit in




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