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The Adventures of Jules Santana
2006-03-01 19:10:39 (UTC)

You Selfish Bitch

That's what someone really needs to say to me, at least
that's what I'm saying to myself. I swear, the fact that
Luke is so busy at work, too busy to send me as many emails
that I want him to, has now made me such a bitch. I'm like
refusing to send emails back to him and all b/c I am so
damned spoiled and selfish that I take it personally that
he can't talk or anything with me. That's fine though, but
why is my first instinct and thought for me to just not
answer his phone calls after work and tell him that I'm
just super busy and see how he likes it. I mean seriously,
I'm sitting here as if he said to me "Julian, I'm going to
focus on work just to piss you off". I mean he should be
doing that, and I shouldn't be always sending emails back
and forth, but for me, my job doesn't consistently keep
busy like his does, and I don't know....I just need my damn
attention. Anyway, I need to seriously grow up and really
get past this aspect of me. I swear I have always been like
this. I want to be #1 in everyone's book and when I realize
that I'm not, it pisses me off and I react as if someone
has done something intentionally to hurt me. I need to
seriously check myself on that one...with thim. LOL Now
that therapy is over...back to work.




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