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Dragon Eyes And Angel Wings
2006-02-09 06:44:07 (UTC)

Cowboys

I want a cowboy. Even if he's a gay one like Heath Ledger
or Jake Gyllenhall. They're beautiful. They're beautiful
together. I just saw Brokeback Mountain. I must admit it
was a good movie. It was touching. I almost wish I'd gone
by myself. Sometimes when i go to the movies by myself, i
enjoy them more. Or maybe i just have time to contemplate
them more by myself.

I just got off the phone with Matt. He left this morning.
He's away again for 3 weeks. I was still kind of choked up
about the movie when i was talking to him.When i was
trying to tell him about it I had to stop myself from
crying. But then when we got off the phone I burst into
tears. All because of the movie. It wasnt just about gay
cowboys. It was about love... and how life can pull you in
so many directions and onto different paths. And shows
that maybe some love isnt meant to be. I think that part
struck a chord the most. Because what if love is meant to
be but it just never gets to happen? Does that contradict
itself? I dont know. I dont even know if i'm making any
sense. And now im crying again. I just downloaded the
theme seong from the movie. I think thats what's making me
cry. It's called 'Wings'.
I don't know why I'm so upset. I guess I just feel that
life is fucked up. I mean i realized that a long time
ago , but we just dont make any fucking sense.


Anyways.. I gotta go to bed.
I miss everyone.I even miss me.

-Dragon Eyes*




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