ShadowDawn

aRegretfulSerenity
2006-02-07 20:31:56 (UTC)

a little of both

u know its weird. i may not like her very much, she may
have completely betrayed my trust and used me, and even
tried to win over my friends, but im still worried about her.
yes i realize that logically i should hate her, but in the
end, shes still a fellow human being, even if i joke
otherwise, and she is going through a rough time. given
that, yes, its mostly her own fault and its just karma
biting her in the ass, but i still notice the sadness
surrounding her and how quiet shes been lately, and contrary
to popular belief, i do not derive some kind of sick
satisfaction from her suffering.
this last thing though, i feel really sorry for her about,
and i do hope things turn out okay. i realize how attached
she is to her dad, and it would destroy her if something
happened.
so in the end, does it make me soft? that i still dont
wish ill upon my enemies? that i may not be thrilled with
the idea of their success but never pray for their failure?
id like to think that im just being morally sound, but it
could just be another prime example of me letting people run
me over.
i dunno.
could be a little of both.




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