Tae

I drink Alone
2006-02-01 21:28:21 (UTC)

More complaining

Sometimes I get annoyed because people act like I should
be a total different person now that I'm a Mom.
I love taking care of Hayden. Getting up at night bothered
me at first but now I look forward to it, I like holding
baby when everythings quiet and hearing his baby noises
when he's eating.
I love seeing him in the morning and dressing him, the way
he snuggles against me whenever I pick him up.
His bath time when he makes funny faces because he can't
quite figure out what it is.
But I still want to be me. I hate how people give me a
hard time. For example I started smoking again now that
I'm not pregnant. I never smoke around Hayden, just when
I'm by myself like when I run to the store or on the rare
occasion out to eat. But all the same I'm still not being
a responsible person.
I'd still like to be me, I think the people around me make
me old. They certainly want me to act like it.




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