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Jenn
2006-01-25 02:51:56 (UTC)

i cant express who i am..

i cant express who i am anymore, thats super silly ...haha
but i cant.... when i share how i feel about something.. i
might get passionate, or angry, whatever it might be, i
might express my feelings...but i truely cant get out this
feeling, in words....can't say i've tryed in other ways to
be quite honest. but its beginning to burn a hole in me i
suppose..i wear myself thing in rountine and life...but i
know whats real and whats important...but i dont feel it..
i am looking foward to get outta town for the weekend..
it'll be nice...i dunno what it is about this town, i feel
condonned to just be here...its like a prision cell...its
weird, but i hate living here....dont get me wrong, i'd
miss alot of people but i'd also would not miss alot of
people...

the bitter truth...i gotta forgive some people.... to
allow myself to feel human again i suppose...i just dont
ever get the feeling like im comfertable with myself
anymoer, theres always something floating in the back of
my mind i need to fix...i wish i could feel comfertable
with ME...and with who i am..what i do...like i dont get
it....i usually am.....why does all this responsibily have
to be fled onto my shoulders, why do i have to be the one
who needs this fixed.....like holy crap...make it end! im
emailing right now...i gotta end this insanity...




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