blkdragon

grounded
2006-01-15 05:36:55 (UTC)

Ketch Up

1/11/06 Skated last night, zoned out, no Patty or Lydia.
The older Brutha has been bringing people with him, or
suggesting that they come, I’m getting the feeling that
they may be single women and he’s trying to play match-
maker. Some of these women have been on skates before. My
patience has been rather short lately, no one has suffered
for it. Kenny wanted to bitch, always wants to bitch about
one thing or another, I don’t want to listen and he doesn’t
make as many attempts to involve me. He bores easily,
because he’s not doing anything, he doesn’t want to do
anything; why shouldn’t he be bored? He comes to my area to
talk, I’m too busy, he’s constantly in my way; I begin to
get an attitude and he goes away. He’s one of the biggest
children I’ve ever known, he’s in pout mode, he’s fallen
from favor and doesn’t want to accept the fact that the CEO
kisses the ass of the moment; Kenny’s moment came and went.
Lisa said something that disturbed me yesterday, she
doesn’t have a life outside of work, it wasn’t so much what
she said as how she said it; she sounded really sad. I’ve
been thinking of what to do about that, I consider Lisa a
friend, even sexy; that doesn’t mean that I believe a
relationship with her is feasible. I don’t want to mislead
her, get her hopes up.
1/12/06 Charles has moved in with Eva, he didn’t know that
you sign a lease when you get an apartment, he didn’t know
that Eva probably signed one and he’s not on it; bad
business, if she gets angry she can tell him to get out.
He’s gone from being in that position with his Mother, to
being in that position with Eva, I’ll talk to him soon.
Been eating a lot of breakfast items for dinner, they’re
quick and easy, I never seem to have enough time to prepare
a real meal and I generally only do that when I’m feeding
someone other than myself.
Began printing a publication for the State, a total of 5
books ranging from 500 to 250 pages, they’re being printed
on 60# stock and that can be quite heavy; I’d need help
handling these jobs. I told Kenny, this morning, this job
was going to hurt and the minute it did I’d walk away; they
don’t pay me enough to hurt myself. I got help in the form
of Fariss, we goofed all day. I went to lunch early, Kenny
didn’t want to risk shutting the press down, I walked
outside to find a flat tire and spent my lunch changing it.
I worked longer than I expected to and went to Pep Boys to
get the tire plugged, didn’t get out of there until 6 and
rushed home to prepare for the rink, I got there at 7:40. I
found myself stressed and easy to anger, one woman was
playing tag with her Daughter, came close to crashing into
me; I gave her the “eye” and that was the end of them
crossing my path. Haven’t seen Patty or Lydia in a while, I
imagine Patty’s avoiding me because I’m not trying to have
a conversation with her, she’s not saying anything worthy
of note.
Got an email from Guy, he’ll be flying in on the 17th,
we’re having dinner at the “99" on the 18th. I never heard
of the “99", Sheridan told me that it’s an expensive place
and Guy doesn’t need to impress me, we could go anywhere to
eat and talk; I’m looking forward to the topic of
conversation.
I saw Lisa this morning and told her that I’m going to take
her to dinner, we’ll have her favorite, anything Alfredo.
I’ve been very tire lately. Spoke to and laughed with my
Sister (Donna)yesterday, we talked about her ex and Sons,
it was eye opening. Spoke to Toya, general conversation,
not much to say; still reeling from her decision to forge
Shawn’s signature and her trying to get me involved. Lavon
ordered something for me related to the film industry and
specifically geared to writing screenplays, there are
classes available.
1/13/06 Got to work on time, stayed until 4:45, Kenny was
having problems and I couldn’t leave him to drown; he told
me not to bring breakfast tomorrow morning, he’s buying. He
want’s so much to be my friend, it’s impossible, once
bitten; twice shy! I’ll allow him to buy me breakfast,
greasy spoon isn’t my cup of tea though, the food isn’t as
good as mine. Charles called me about video games for
Nintendo64. I’ll be skating on Sunday, I’ll be needing to.
1/14/06 Got to work on time, stayed until 2:30, had planned
to leave at noon. Kenny thanked me for staying, I’ll be
saying no to overtime if this continues. Worked with Tom
and Mike, didn’t need them though, was going to hang with
Mike but need to get new brake pads and I’ll only be
driving when necessary. Mike and I talked, he thought I
believed myself better than he, that wasn’t necessarily
true; we were too busy for each other. He was having
problems with baby mama drama, he said I was always getting
calls from women, in truth; we weren’t catching each other.
Mike normally works nights and I’m working days, we’d only
be able to hang on weekends, he’s on a different plane than
I; he believes the conquest of women is the shit and I’ve
gone beyond that mind set. I came home to find someone in
the apartment below me, Day and his boy were in there, I
called the property management company and complained; they
shouldn’t be able to hang here and I want the locks changed.
Listening to Ambient Sounds lately and loving them, rap and
popular music aren’t doing anything for me, some hip-hop is
still interesting; as long as it covers a topic of
concern. “The Formula” is shit, let’s tell everyone we sold
dope to fools, made lots of loot; got a record deal and got
out of the inner-city. I don’t mind telling everyone that
I’ll do crime to get what I want and where I want to go,
the bad thing about it is I was once part of “the formula”,
pissed off because I should’ve been smarter than that; pain
(physical and emotional) doesn’t do a body good. Not
everyone sees a light at the end of the tunnel, most see
only darkness, feeling their way as they go along; often
stumbling over the ones that fell before them. Success is
often defined by society and not the individual.
It’s snowing like madd here, gusting winds with visibility
at a minimum, had to go to the store and planning to skate
tomorrow; need to mellow out. The last three days at work
have been strenuous and it’s time to relax. Got to get new
brake pads installed and won’t be able to get the work done
until Tuesday at the earliest, I plan to take Wednesday off
and get it done, before meeting with Guy for dinner. I made
the appointment for Tuesday and realized that I’d lose all
my overtime, I’ll reschedule the appointment.




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