AutumLeaves

Happy Fucking New Year

God, so much happens in such a little time. Of course,
like I said, the Ranger came to see me, but he called me
today while I was out at dinner with some of my friends.
Just saying good-bye really since he's leaving to go back
to Airbourne training tomorrow...well, in like...six hours
since he has to drive to Georgia. Things are strange
between us...he told me I was beautiful when he was up here
and I told him not to say shit like that...but then he
calls me crying about how he's scared and all that, and
that he hates he has to hurt everyone when he goes. This is
his first leave. Then...I get this im...

audi_baby16 (1/1/2006 9:56:03 PM): For the most part. It's
like you said, no one likes to be lonely. But I manage. If
that's one of the only things I have to complain about then
I'm doin all right.
fabricatedyou (1/1/2006 9:56:56 PM): i hate being lonely
audi_baby16 (1/1/2006 9:57:24 PM): Yeah, me too.
fabricatedyou (1/1/2006 9:57:38 PM): a girl like you
shouldnt be though
fabricatedyou (1/1/2006 9:57:49 PM): a guy like me shouldnt
fuckin either!!!
fabricatedyou (1/1/2006 9:57:50 PM): lol
audi_baby16 (1/1/2006 9:58:57 PM): Yeah, well we kinda
fucked ourselves over with that one...haha. *shrugs* I'll
be all right regardless. And you will too. You've got girls
that'd love to be with you.
fabricatedyou (1/1/2006 9:59:34 PM): you got men who love
you too
fabricatedyou (1/1/2006 10:00:13 PM): i know one in
particular...he says he regrets ever tryin to think about
shit to much...which ruins shit a tad

Of course he's talking about himself, since he told me
that. But...ionno, I just told him not to say shit like
that, this is the cat that cheated on me with some other
chick and things keep getting crazy between them. I don't
know, only time will tell.

Then, at dinner, my girl told me she wasn't a virgin
anymore, which...made me feel really bad. I mean...she was
kinda that whole piece that made me believe in a little bit
of innocence...and now it's gone. Which is really sad. Made
me not want to sleep with anyone for awhile.

Last night, went to a two kegger, which was fun, saw
some fine ass motherfuckers there. haha. But, I only went
home with one. He was cute, red head. Me and my weakness
for redheads. But I mean, I could have done without it, he
wasn't really my type and there was another cat I would
have much rather taken home, but haha, he was really
fucking drunk and I chill with him all the time. But,
enough rambling...he was a really fucking good kisser
though, not the guy I slept with. haha.

I'm out for awhile, gonna think about stuff...sorry for
the informality. Sometimes we all just let that shit crop
up.