The First Tear

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2005-12-24 07:23:41 (UTC)

Torn apart

Dear Diary

Well, it's Christmas Eve morning and I'm lonely and
depressed. I miss Cody. I miss Joey. I don't know who I
miss. I'm so confused. I jsut talked to Joey and it's so
weird. We talked like old times. He told me some things I
didn't know. Appearently my "friends" were telling him to
dump me over a year ago. That's some bullshit! Lorrie's name
keeps popping up and it's really starting to piss me off.
I'm so sick and tired of hearing about her God Damn self.
Anyways, I miss what Joey and I had. He wants to come up
here or for me to come down there. I can't though. I'm with
Cody now. I'm pretty sure I'm happy. Things are starting to
bother me. He's just not my type. I don't know. Maybe he is.
He seems so depressed someitmes. He seems so....apathetic
and he really is. I don't know if I want someone like that.
I'm not sure if it's gonna be such a good idea but, maybe
it's just the distance. Maybe once we get back to see each
other on New Years...things will be better. I hope. Truly!

I don't really know what to say. I'm just lonely and
depressed. Oh well.