Joe-GW

life of an addict
2005-12-21 06:00:50 (UTC)

...more thoughts

Ok so was i being to drastic? should i not have thrown
her out of my life just so my life is better? I dont know
if i can live this way, i've tried to think about other
things but i just cant. ill give it one more day and i
might call her just to talk through this more i think.

Okay i decided to try and sum up our friendship. here
goes... she came into my life when i was eh... 7ish, but i
became friends with her brothers(all three of them) and i
really dont remember her from those times. my first
memorys of her was when i was 12ish and she came to our
house for the summer and so we where stuck in my house in
the country with jack to do for acouple months. so we
bonded, she was 14-15, she actualy was the one who got me
interested in playing piano more. she taught me heart and
soul, who can forget the person that teaches that to you?
hmm? I had this huge crush on her then, she was like this
really cute girl who flirts way to much and has a problem
with authority. anyways then one summer, two of her
brothers, her mom and herself, came and stayed with us for
like 3 months (they were going through this stuff and
needed help so..) thats when i really befriended them all
exept there mom she is nuts. Her brother christopher and
daniel have been some of my close friends ever sence then.
but they would all goto california like every other year
for a year or so, it wasnt really predictable. so one time
when she came back, i decided hey im gonnna write her a
letter and tell how i feel. so i did and she didnt really
say to much about it untell we were in my jaquzi (how do
you spell that stupid word?) and then we started making
out. well ive talked about that before.

She used to be this person i could tell anything to, then
she got the WRONG friends and they became more important
then me. so i would try and hang out with her but whenever
i would goto her house she would use my phone to
call "those" friends, and so i pulled away. then what do
you know, she got pregnant. I kinda pulled away farther on
acount of the drugs (ive mentioned alot of this b4, i just
thought i would recap) and then i got off those drugs and
called her up. so she was there for me when my mother
origanly thought jayne was having an affair with my dad
then everyone thought she was crazy(including me) and so
my parents steped down, and she was someone i could talk to
(when i ran all my other friends away she stayed). i cant
type anymore, i cant see.




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