prettyungsag

whispers from a contemplAtiv soul
2005-12-12 00:39:05 (UTC)

fAllin

its so amazin how evrythin can jus fall apart rite b4 ur
veri eyez.all that was goin good has collapsed rite n front
of me.in otha werdz im not movin.i dont hav a man(womp
womp).wutz wrong wit me?wen will sum1 jus look @ me n sai
wow shes pretti,nice and fun 2 b around.sure i hav alotta
guy frendz but they dont count.wen will sum1 eber hav
strong feelins 4 me?want me?need me?life has def. gone down
hill.but im trynna stai strong.havin a best frend in God
has kept me goin.my bdai wuz yesterdai and i always thank
God that i made it 2 anotha yr evn tho i ddnt deserve 2.im
a failure as a human bein.seriousli.and im not trynna b
down on myself or nethin nah.im jus bein real.thats wut im
here 4 2 b real.so heres the honesti.wuteva iv done wrong n
my lif im gettin the pai back.i also feel no matta wat i do
2 betta myself it will always go unnoticed on top of the
fact that i tri 2 b nice 2 evri1 and i get nun but their
^$$ 2 kiss n the end.o yea and some real frendz i hav.non
of my so called frendz evn called me on my bdai.nice rite?
one person wuz nice enuff 2 text me but evn still....i
think its kinda messed up cuz if sum1 tol me their bdai and
i remembered plz believe i wuld make an effort and pic up
the damn fone.das aight tho.all good.i jus dont want nun of
these so called frendz 2 sai hi 2 me n skool n smile n my
face?am i wrong 4 bein madd?idk.wen will i eva find a tru
frend that values frendship lik i do and cares?sum1 who evn
bothers?sum1 2 realli call a frend.damn time changes
evrythin.omg.life is so lik a puzzle...either ur good at
them or ur not.im not good at lif.im jus tired of bein
there 4 evry1 evn tho i luv 2.i jus wonda whos gonna b
there 4 me?no1!absoluteli no1!no1 has bothered 2 call me or
ax me if i wanna go out.i sit n my room evry weekend n
dwell on my miserable xcuse of a life.evrything is goin
sooooooo wrong.duz no 1 get it?im goin thru sooo much rite
now but yet i still out on a smile and continue 2 b the
faithful frend i am 2 evry1.im tired of it.i dont hav the
energi 4 it ne mo.its jus that i ddnt wanna go bac 2 that
hateful hateful person i used 2 b.that jus wasnt a good tim
n my lif @ all.o well.i guess im done evn tho im not realli.
ta~ta )*(smOoches)*( -*-TynA-*-




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