sodomy_and_lust

The Dirty Slurpee
2005-12-05 11:30:58 (UTC)

thoughts about monica

i decided to take a nap today, so i did and when i finally
decided to crash i couldnt cause monica was on my mind. so
its now 4:57 and im sitting here just thinking about her.
she intreges the hell outta me. she smiles all the time
shes a happy person, shes nice. ive never been with
someone who has a "normal" personallity. like i ask her
alot what are you thinking about and she says nothing. but
i ask cause you can tell shes thinking something, and i
want to know why shes so happy. im very drawn to her. i
really dont see what the fuck she remotely sees in me. im
this morbid twisted perverted fuck, and shes no where even
close to any of that. she has the look of a good person,
and you look at me and you know im thinking about some
form of destruction so in other words a bad person. to be
honest i think she lowered her standards to be with me.
cause i know for a fact she can do 100x better than me.
its rare to find someone like her, the sad thing is i know
im going to corrupt her. i do with everybody that is
somehow in my life. like james was my finest work lol.
some ppl will know what im talking about others wont. but
thats besides the point. i can still feel her kiss. we did
something last night and i was really waiting to get
slapped for it but she didnt. im not talking sex. but
thats what i mean im this open person and a horn dog. but
her on the other hand isnt like that. but i was waiting
for me to get hit for what i did. we held each other for
hours, i was looking in her eyes and all i could do was
smile. she makes me smile way to much. shes very shy and i
truely wish she wasnt. cause one im a nosey person and im
interested in what ppl think, second its me for god sakes
im willing to tell anyone anything so ya shouldnt hold
back from telling me. if she where to had said no last
night i wouldve stopped. im sure i make her nervous. which
i wish i didnt. i really like monica a fucking lot. but
that was some of the stuff on my mind that was keeping me
awake. hopefully this dont weird ya out monica. late!




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