supergoddess

This diary is my kief,hashish,&opium pip
2005-11-26 05:48:17 (UTC)

You break down and plead your case I dont know what to say


Fuck Zac.

I'm so mad at him right now, it's ridiculous.

He wrote this whole sweet thing on his profile talking
about the perfect girl, and at the end he put "I think
I've already found her".


Of course my concieted ass thinks that it's about me.
Because I like him I assume he should feel the same,
because that's the way it's going down.

Right?


Wrong.


I didn't ask him about his profile.

But. He'd always tell me how he liked me, we'd flirt, blah
blah blah. But I'm fucking wrong again. Why'd I assume
this would work?

No, when I was talking to him tonight, and we were just
joking around, calling eachother losers, and he said "if I
was a loser you wouldn't like me" and I said "you think
I'm a loser but you still like me" and he said "I don't
like you the same way you like me".

I don't remember his exact words, but they weren't exactly
the right choice to let someone down easy. You know, he
wanted it to hurt.

I guess it's because his ex-girlfriend hurt him, but to
tell you the truth I don't really give a shit.

I didn't do anything wrong to him, this isn't my fault and
I can't expect everyone I like to feel the same way about
me.

Even if they totally lead me on and tell me that I'm
pretty and they like me more and more every day and they
need to go driving somewhere with me.

So I was in a great mood for the first part of the day,
thinking that his profile was about me, and then I find
out he just doesn't feel that way about me at all.

So yes, I am in an really shitty mood, but these past few
days I've been so incredibly upbeat and happy that I'm not
going to let it get to me. At all.

Yes, I like him a lot, and yes, I'm even more upset
because the last thing I need is someone fucking with my
emotions, because that is literally what he did. He fucked
with my head.

Cry? Ha. I think I'll laugh. In his face.

I fuck with everyone but seriously.... not like this. No
one fucks with me.

The best way to deal with things like this is pretend you
don't give a shit. Then the guy is like "OMG OMG, WTF I
REJECTED HER AND SHE DOESN'T EVEN CARE?" and then they
want you back, which is hilarious enough on its own.

Aimee's been over my house the whole entire day and we've
just been rocking out to hellogoodbye, dancing in our
underwear, talking about people, and just having shitloads
of fun, and tomorrow we're going to go to the mall.

So I'm going to buy a bunch of shit, and look hot as fuck
on monday.

Because nothing is sweeter then making someone feel like
shit when they've done you wrong and all they want is to
get you back into their reach.

Revenge is sweet.

I know, it's so typical and practically pathetic of me,
but it works. Every. Time.


But I'm also really glad that I'm not like Zac. He has to
fuck with peoples emotions purposely to deal with his own
pathetic fat girlfriend dumping him. He's seriously
depressed all the time.

Yes, I was depressed about Pat but it's not like I fuck
with anyone purposely when I knew they like me and lead
them on and then totally reject them.

I mean, I know I went out with Kenny and dumped him after
only a few days but it was just a mistake. I mean. I
thought I liked him and I really didn't. What was I
supposed to do? I couldn't even kiss him without my
stomach getting into knots.

I'm better than that.

So I'm going to get on the bus Monday morning and act like
everything is normal. I'm not going to make faces at Zac
and laugh and smile at him, or joke around with him.

I'm going to sleep, Happy thanksgiving you bastards.




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