TwistedAngel

Pieces of my life
2005-11-23 19:13:21 (UTC)

another night in heaven

Well sad news our football team lost state... i felt bad
for our seniors... i mean this was their last chance and
they lost... its awful. Well m came down that night... we
got beer and a hotel room again... lol so yeah. It was
wonderful i felt so loved and i had so much fun. All we did
was drink, kiss, cuddle, talk and have sex which was pretty
good again. But he was really depressed bout the game so he
opened up to me and i couldn't think of anything to say to
comfort him so i sat there and held him and cried for him.
He asked if i was crying and i told him i don't cry, but i
did cuz my heart just broke for him and the other seniors
but mostly for him. I actually got to spend the entire
night beside him. It was a great night. we made love three
times and i was so comfortable around him... still wouldn't
take my shirt off tho... yeah i have this weird thing that
i can't take my shirt off in front of people.. i don't like
my little boobs so i don't let anyone see them. But still i
had the best time in the world.. we only got like 2 hours
of sleep and we had to go to work them next morning. But it
was worth every damn minute. I wish i could be with him
again right now. I love to be around him i feel so
comfortable. Like i woke up around 5:30 and we sat and
talked and fooled around until 7 then we got up and got
ready. yeah it was wonderful... I talked to him last night
and he wanted to go to the movies with me,, i thought that
was sweet. Told him i couldn't and that he should take his
sisters but he was like i wanna go with you. aww Hes an
awesome person. I've figured out that i'm not IN love with
him, i just love him cuz he's such a great person. Besides
i know i'll never fully have him so why bother? I toold my
best friend amanda's advice: just have fun with it while
you have it cuz it won't last forever. LOL... its funny cuz
we're both in the same boat. She's in love with this guy
who has a girlfriend blah blah so yeah and so if my friend
laura...i just think we girls are stupid round here. We
fall for these guys we can't have. i dunno maybe one day
they will get the guys they want.. i don't plan on having m
so i'm just gonna enjoy my time with him and pretend while
he's in my arms that he's mine. I dunno its weird cuz he's
always the first to kiss me or hug me. Like the morning
after the night we spent together we dropped me off to work
and i gave him a quick kiss and he said what was that, you
can't just give me a short kiss you gotta give me a longer
kiss, so of course i did. Any excuse to kiss him i'll take.
lol yeah hes a wonderful guy even tho he is cheating on his
girlfriend, but he really does love her, he's gonna marry
her. So anyway bout college, i'm thinking of rhodes instead
of hendrix. Its close so i can come home more often and
i'll get to see everyone more. M said that he'll come see
me a lot if i go to Rhodes. aww. gosh i talk about him too
much, hahaha im obsessed with him.... nah just enjoy his
company.
Thanksgiving is tomorrow, its gonna be hell here. so all
have a wonderful thanksgiving. give thanks for all you
have. love ya lots.

jenn




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