megan
listen to my silences
don't fucking censor me
DON'T FUCKING CENSOR ME
as we sit in your truck and we talk for hours
about how your life is falling apart
and it's you it's not me you need to figure things out
so you took it off and i hurt secretly
make up your mind
do you want me or not
is it my fault or yours
but no more games
well i'm tired of being
treated like this like a bitch
i know it hurts to listen but
don't you fucking censor me
then you call me at work and you talk down to me
and i don't even know what you're talking about
i call back you explain you're just worried and scared
and you say that things are okay
but then you turn around and
you whisper things that
turn into screams and
now it's my fault
well i'm tired of being
treated like this like a bitch
i know it hurts to listen but
don't you fucking censor me
i'm going to say what i want what i feel when i do it
and there's no reason that i should stop myself
it's the truth it's the only way for me to live whole
and if you can't face it there's nothing i can do
but tell you this
you're the one i see when i look forward
and you are the one who is hurting me now
you don't like my honesty and i don't like my secrets
but that's too fucking bad so don't fucking censor me
final thought: it was all a dream right?