blkdragon

grounded
2005-11-15 05:16:45 (UTC)

The Moon's Star

Started out as an extremely boring day, almost ended that
way. Lisa got sick today, she went to rest in her car, we
checked on her periodically; she then left to go home
early. Finished reading “Imajica”, can’t wait to give it to
Patty to read, it’s a well-read edition. Had to get a new
set of earphones for my cassette player, stopped to see
Toya and the kids, stayed for an hour and headed home; had
a near miss while changing my mind about which way I’d go
home. For a minute, I thought the driver might decide to
come behind me, I didn’t see that as much of a problem;
even though there were a couple of passengers, it didn’t
happen though.
I was wasting time when my phone rang, it was a local call.
I’d called my man sandar about the studio program, he’d
asked me to come by, I told him to call me back because he
was in the middle of something and I didn’t want to go
there. When the phone rang, I thought it was Sandar, it was
Patty! She told me that she’s moving out, she also told me
that her Grandfather passed away (last Saturday), she asked
if I’d help her get her things; she said she’d found a
place 20 minutes from her house. How she was able to find a
place so easily is a mystery to me, perhaps because it’s
out in the country? I told her that I’d help her, she asked
if I were going to the rink tomorrow, I said I was and
invited her to an early dinner; she seemed surprised by the
invitation. I’m having mixed emotions right now, I’m happy
she’s leaving Mark’s place, I’m happy I’m the one she
called for assistance, seems I’m closer to her than I could
have hoped. Not sure whether we’ll have dinner at my place
or the diner, if my place, I’ll leave a key for her. I may
need to change my plan to go to Boston on Friday and go on
Saturday, if so I’ll stay the weekend. Not sure why I
answered the phone, when I was unsure of the number calling
me. Patty’s told me that she’s at her Mother’s house, I’ll
store that number in my phone.
I’ll have to let her do all the talking when I see her,
she’s calling U-Haul right now and I expect her to call me
back, she wants to do the move all at once; I’ll be driving
the truck.
I don’t think it would be appropriate to bring up the
possibility of a more personal relationship with her right
now, need to be patient and just be a friend, that’s more
of what she needs. She wasn’t sure I’d be able to help, I
told her that I’d be there when she needed or wanted me. I
thought she must’ve been spending all her time finding the
place she’s moving into, she told me that she’d made one
call and found the place in Malta, she has a view of a
lake; I’ll love to see the place.
Patty called back, she got no answer on the rental, she’ll
try again tomorrow. She shared a lot of her life with me
tonight, some of it was decidedly painful, she asked if I
were falling in love with her and I told her that I don’t
fall; I choose! She liked that idea. I elaborated for her,
told her things she’d told me that opened my eyes to things
I’d chosen to ignore. Told her that because of her I was
rescinding rules that I’d put into place, how comfortable
and happy I am with her. I believe she’s happy to know how
I feel, she shares these feelings and wants to get as close
to me as I want to get to her.
We talked for a long time, she was drinking a bottle of
wine, she asked if she could spend the night here; I told
her she could. I asked if she could drive, she sounded a
bit tipsy and I didn’t think it a good idea for her to get
into her car, she’ll be spending the night at her
Mother’s. I don’t believe it would really be a good idea
for her to spend a night with me, I wouldn’t have shared a
bed with her, it’s too soon and she’s too vulnerable right
now. I asked her to go outside and look at the moon, it’s
full and there’s a bright star under the moon to the left,
I wanted her to enjoy this view of Nature.
I told Patty things about herself that she hadn’t told me,
told her about the things I’d been ruminating over for the
past three weeks, we hit the highlights and now we get to
fill in the blanks. Patty’s told me that she’s guilty of
the same things as I, watching me while I skate, trying
hard to concentrate on what she’s doing and not me; it’s
easier said than done for the both of us. Patty asked if
she could take me to dinner for my birthday (this Friday),
we’re to do that next month, we’ll celebrate her birthday
as well; perhaps I’ll get some Tangerine Body Soak and
bathe her?
She asked if I remembered giving her a rose one day, I told
her I did, I bought it for no apparent reason; I’m glad it
stayed in her mind. I’d given a rose to Patty and Mary that
day, Mary introduced us, eight years ago.
While I talked to Patty, Louisa called, I let her leave
voicemail; the first thing she said is that my voice is
sexy and she asked me to call her at her Mother’s house. I
tried calling, whoever answered the phone seemed not to
hear me, I called back and the phone was answered; then it
was hung up. I don’t have time for the bullshit that goes
along with dealing with Louisa and her Family.
Patty’s told me that when I deal with Louisa, I’m appearing
to be quite drained, emotionally; she asked why I continue.
I told Patty that Louisa is a friend and at one point there
was no one to help her, that left me, I thought there was a
hint that we’d be more to each other; I was wrong. I’ve
come not to like Louisa’s Son, she’s appearing to be not
much more than a spoiled child herself, truly needy; Lenny
and I would only bump heads on a continuous basis. He’s got
no self-respect, without it he can’t respect anyone, I’ve
got better things to do than deal with the stress he’s
bringing to the table. Louisa called me back and asked if I
could hear her, they couldn’t hear me when I called, she
seems disoriented, her voice was slurring a bit. She
mentioned her Mother believing Guy is trying to hurt her,
he’s supposedly got life insurance policies for them both
and she said he came and took her out of the hospital,
sounded like the delirium of a fever. She’s talking about
coming back to Albany, I don’t think it’s a good idea,
she’s not well and she’s got no viable support system. If
there’s trouble, her Family won’t be able to get to her in
time and I don’t see that I’ll be available, I’m not
thinking of staying in Albany! Patty and I have a lot to
learn and teach each other.




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