Angel

DayDream Believer
2005-11-10 16:29:15 (UTC)

Sense

Things are starting to make sense for me now, how I fit in
and everythings connected. I said starting to make sense,
not make sense completly.
For those who wonder, my make up is now in the makeup bag
agen, the napkins thrown away (but first I kissed it) and
the nailpolish is off, also on my toes. In small steps,
cause I needed to.
I dont think of S* as much now, Im not that confused
anymore, I stil hope he`s happy, also with her. But if I
find out shes pregnat I puke, and then smile :-)
Lately I found out that Im not that happy about Ceccy beeing
pregnant agen. She was here, wisiting me, she and her belly.
Ceccy was happy, so I should be hapy for her. But I cant
help but thinking her relationship will never work, Kelly
thinks so to. And her dreams of travling a lot, and live on
the other side of the world, getting education and stuff,
will be limited down to a full night of sleep, comming her
with the child once in a while and hoping stay at home moms
gets more support from the state. I petty her, witch is bad,
since she dont petty herself. I cant tell her this, wont
disapoint her, so I stay happy with her.
Kelly might be pregnat and its not the guy shes hoplessly in
love with who`s the father. But Kelly is clear, if shes
pregnant she "will get it fixed" thats how easy she look at
abortion these days. One of her other close friends are
getting one soon aswell, But she know shes pregnant, and the
father is not the man of her dreams aswell. I think she
cheated and got pregnat, she thinks the other guys the
father and not her ex who she stil want to be with but broke
up with her once she told him she was pregnant with what
most likely is a nother mans baby. Complicated lifes yes,
and then thers me, who only go to bed with Tommy.




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