Jecka

ICA
2005-10-24 04:44:04 (UTC)

ALL LIES

I found out my biggest pet peeve yesterday...LIERS Is it
that hard to seriously tell the truth. No, you should be
more scared to lie than to hear the truth. At least when
you know the truth you don't feel so deceived. I am by the
way not as nice as you think I might be. I have had it with
the whole you are so nice, then stop using it to your
advantage and just let me be. Don't use me. By the way you
can't be mad at me for what I do and don't do. I choose, not
you. It's my life not yours. I have a strong shield up, and
I really don't think that it is coming down anytime soon. I
am so tired of all the bullshit that people go through just
to get around the truth.
I don't know what's worse. The fact that you think I won't
find out and just won't say anything about it, or the fact
that you really just don't care. I don't want people like
that in my life. I don't deserve people like that in my
life. It really hurt that I couldn't just be told. Why,
why? how hard is it really? Are people seriously just
really big assholes like that...well obviously they are
because you just proved it to me. I don't like to be angry
and upset...I have never felt so hurt and deceived...I wish
I could take it all back and pretend like it never happened.
The only good that came out of this is that I now know that
I really can come over it all because I am stronger than you
think I am...This is my life...




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