JuggaloPsycho

Lunactic Scriptures
2005-10-20 17:48:24 (UTC)

Addiction

You go in, feeling like shit again.
Going to get that fix to make you feel numb again.
Cuz your tired of everything thats goin on or somethin,
Feeling like shit or like feeling nothing
(Anyways...)
You dont wanna, but you just gotta go do it,
Order up whatever and get ready for it.
Here it comes, that fuckin anticipation,
that fuckin shit that takes you away on vacation.
(So there it is...)
Take a deep breath and sigh of relief
this golden grail that will cure you of all your grief.
Ya jump in! OH GOD YES IT FEELS SO FUCKIN GOOD!
FINALLY!!! YOUR FEELING GOOD LIKE YOU FUCKIN SHOULD!!!
You soak it all in like a happy dream!
Like a fuckin huge diamond with a shiny gleam!
(-smilez-)
'Oh yes...My soul's on extacy...'
You can feel yourself flying, finally getting free.
Ain't nothing gona bring you down again,
cuz this'll last forever. It's your best friend.
It treats ya good, unlike everything else in life.
You love this shit more than you love your own fuckin wife.
They say they care, but they just don't understand...
This loves you more than than all the love in the land.
(some time later)
I don't get it...Where did it fucking go?!
It left me hanging like a fuckin hour ago.
I want it back! It gives me the fucking relief!
It gives me pleasure in my body, even my fucking TEETH!!!
GAH DAMMIT!! NO! WHY'D IT HAVE TO GO AWAY!!!
WHEN I FIND WHO FUCKIN TOOK IT I'LL MAKE EM FUCKING PAY!!!
I NEED to have it! Y'all just dont understand!
Nothing else makes me feel as good as it can.
Oh god Why?! What did i do too you?
One lil taste and i swear i'll never bother you...
(-tearz-)
Please...Please come back and tell me why?
Why do you hate me?! I wanna go and fuckin die.
Cuz without you i don't think i can take it...
Without you in my life i can not make it...
Oh god...I'm feeling hollow and black inside...
I gotta go away, i gotta go and hide.
this isn't right...look what it's done to me...
i can't go on again...i can't even fuckin breathe...
oh god save me...i wanna go kill myself
but i know suicide is bad for my health...
(-sigh-)
only reason why i dont is cuz i wanna feel again.
I wanna feel the hug comin from my lil friend.
It still loves me. It always comes and tells me so,
when i have no other place to fucking go.
Sooner or later, we'll get over our lil spat.
It'll come back to love me, i fuckin know that.
Until then, just gotta go on deal with my life...

just gotta go on and deal with my shitty life...