Waldo

Trouble Breathing
2005-10-12 20:42:13 (UTC)

One of those days....

Today is one of those days at work where I have absolutely
nothing to do...and it's driving me nuts! See, after the
last three months of absolute hell and stress, I think I
became so burnt out and so stressed, that sudden
relaxation, sudden lifting of burden and stress just, well,
made me crash even harder.

I took last Friday and this Monday as "comp" days for the
long hours I put into the magazine lately. During those
comp days, I did very little.

Friday, Geoff and I drove to Pahrump and we hung out with
old friends. I got hammered (and a little high) and vegged
all the next day. Saturday night, I returned home and did
nothing--maybe played a video game or two. Sunday, Reg and
I got the beagle puppy (Pepper) and spent all day taking
naps and loafing around a bit. Monday, I can't even
remember because I really didn't do anything worthy of
noting.

Tuesday, I was back at work, and "refreshed," but I noticed
my back was hurting and I became quite tired after work.

Today, it's like I have nothing to do. So I cleaned my
office and did a couple of housekeeping things to try and
keep busy, but it's only 1 p.m. and I'm right back here at
my desk yawning...and typing this. Maybe I DO thrive on the
stress. During the last three months, despite how tired I
became, I was Mr. Automatic when working...accomplishing
things that "just couldn't be done."

To come off of that constant action is kind of exhausting.
And it also reminds you just how much physical pressure you
put on yourself with tons of walking, some heavy lifting
and irregular eating and sleeping habits.

I've (finally) switched my doctors and have an appointment
on the 19th for a full physical. I have a couple of skin
conditions, a gagging reflex, back aches and my constant
fatigue to discuss with him, among other things.

I recognize that I'm unhealthy at the moment. But I'm still
in decent spirits. See, all that stress...everything I had
to deal with...I got through it, and got through it well.
The end results of the work I've done are nothing short of
amazing, and I'm proud of that. I've also made some limited
progress on our new house and the yards. Today/tomorrow I
have a couple of landscapers coming to give me estimates on
how much it would cost to finish moving all that annoying
rock out of my backyard. I hope it's not going to be a
$1,000-plus job, or else I'll have to do it myself and risk
back problems.

That's about it for now...I think I'll take a cat nap on my
desk.




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