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Jenn
2005-10-12 09:06:52 (UTC)

i honestly could probably write..

i honestly could probably write a term paper on my life
right now. but i have no energy. why does life go high
then low. low then high. for some people that is. should i
live my life with my mind, or my heart....i just wish
someone......just someone would tell me whati need to
hear. sad thing is i never needed that before, i reasured
in my mind, many a time that would satisfy my hunger. and
now i just need someone to do it for me? why? because
doubt has taken a toll. why even say something thats isnt
remotely true. i want to know you so well. i want to know
everything about you. why even say that. why make up
things and act like ur 3. why do that? all of you. why
break someones heart meaninglyness, with no intention of
even revenge. just for fun. why do stupid thigns like
that. now am i selfish cuz yeah, this is all revolving
around me, am i selfish? why do i get so involved. im
giving up. but i say that, then i never give up. i get so
fixed on something and nope, thats it till the end of my
feelings. which doesnt make sense because in my MIND i
know it wont work. I always tell myself to make myself
more content. ready , huge delemia guys. go with it, get
hurt from being ignored. then decide to end feelings. or
two, walk away in agony, from missing smoething. Who the
hell invented delemia. go burn.:) i wish id be wanted to
be known, acutally for real, none of this nonscence lies
that i hear. i wish someone wants to know me, took the
time to knew me, put aside their busy schedules to make
sure im ok. selfish...sure..... im ready to quit on it.
then control things my way. but i dont want to, i dont?
but i do. i do and i dont




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