Autum's Leaves
2005-10-11 06:33:43 (UTC)

Lost Again

Did I drive you away? I know what you’ll say,
You say, “Oh, sing one we know,”
But I promise you this,I’ll always look out for you,
That’s what I’ll do.
My heart is yours, It’s you that I hold on to,
That’s what I do,
And I know I was wrong, But I won’t let you down...
Yeah I saw sparks...

There's been more than a few times in my life when that
song brought tears and much worse to my eyes. But, now, I
listen to it and think about maybe falling in love again.

There's someone...That, I've been talking to for awhile.
He's...A little bit of perfect, and a little bit of not. I
don't think I've ever been happier when three o'clock in
the morning rolles around, my cell phone rings and I
hear "Lover, I know you're probably sleeping, but I just
wanted to tell you I love you." He's gorgeous, funny, has a
great personality, wonderful voice, a laugh that I can't
get out of my head...a beautiful smile...And he wants to
get married and have kids. And the cloud I'm standing on
suddenly leaves me stranded in a trailer park with a
tornado coming. I mean, it's immenent death and destruction
if I try anything with this guy. His future is the opposite
of what I want mine to be. *sigh* He does have a really
great car though, and a well paying job, and his head on
straight. Plus, I just can't find it in my heart to say no
to someone who says I should be able to make a living being
a Princess and that he's going to come and steal me away so
we can live on our own island together. *huffs*

I haven't heard from him in a couple of days, but he
just started at a new company with better oppurtunities and
better pay. *thinks* I try not to think the worst, but
somehow it always happens when I develop feelings for

This stuff gives me a headache. I'm off to bed, because
I feel very weird and wish my cuddle buddy was with me.

*le sigh*