Torrance the Vamp

The Vamp's Mind
2005-10-08 05:23:30 (UTC)

I think I am approaching this all wrong

I'm worried and this is gonna sound really stupid but
Trevor never tells me anything I always find out stuff
about him from everyone else. And I think I might just be
being nosy.

Let me explain my point. It all started kinda going
downhill when I tried to figure out what his middle name
was last year and then I started ignoring him for the
attention reason and it has never been the same ever since
and then when he brought those flowers to school to give
to kathryn I saw him that morning and asked him who the
flowers were for kinda teasingly and he's like its a
secret and then I find out they are for kathryn when nate
goes and talks to him about it on our way to band and then
I find out at XC that he asked kathryn to the dance and
that she didn't want to say no she said that he got her
flowers and a gift and that she couldn't say no to that
but the dance should still be fun because they are
friends.

So I'm worried, just worried. Maybe I'm worried he'll get
hurt. And I don't want him too. Or maybe I'm just selfish
because he never told me anything since the middle name
incident like kathryn. I never knew they were going out
until amanda asked him in PE or that they broke up until
maria told me and that the flowers were for her even
though I probably would've guessed and the only way we
talk to each other is if I go over to him and start the
conversation with something stupid or like some syphilis
tidbit I learned in some freakin class.

But then again he's not supposed to tell me anything. I'm
nothing to him. I'm don't tell him what to do or not to
do.

Cuz I'm cold and heartless according to my personality
disorder test where I am 70% Antisocial, 54% Schyzotypal
and 54% Histruistic. And 50% Schyzoid. The top four of all
of them. All either dramatic disorders or eccentric
disorders. So I'm a weird, moody psycho that cares only
for myself.

Thought of the Day:

I should be getting to bed. I have too many issues. I want
a fast forward button. HIM concert rocked, Finch and
Skindred did too. I need a Linkin Park concert. Why? is my
ultimate question. Pourquoi? Porque?




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