ABeautifulDisaster

Ramblings of an Angry Squirrel
2005-10-07 20:47:49 (UTC)

Don't Leave me Now

Dear Diary,

Wow...my life moves so fast. Things are so awsomely
amazing right now...even though I'm still freakin'
confused. Let me explain all of this (be prepared for a
long entry):

So...Ashley and Zac aren't going to date. It blew up so
much on Tuesday. Hmm...ironic that I didn't write in here
then. Zac stayed out with me, and Ashley got mad. So then
she was all drama queen about it. It sucks. She was all
like "I want to be with you!' when really I bet it's
because she can't get anyone else right now. Pathetic.
And she knows he's gonna get a car and stuff. That pisses
me off. I'm not using him at all. And the whole thing was
weird...it affected me wayyy more than I thought it would.
So Zac and I talked about it. Before we did though, he
told her he didn't want to be with her because he still
loved me. That made ms soooo happy.

but so then I broke up with Michael. He really took it
bad. He was all mad about it. But he brought me flowers.
Which it was funny. I gave 'em to Amanda. That was
funny. Then he kept buggin' me, and Zac wrote him a letter
on facebook, and then Michael txted me saying that Zac
threatened him. It freakin' pissed me off. I so don't
wanna be with him. The reason I broke up with him is
because I'm not sure what I want to do. We're still
supposed to casually date.

I think I love Zac still. I think I want to be with him
again. He proved his loyalty to me. I know that doesn't
mean much, but...I'm stil so crazy about him. He really
has changed. I'm so in love with him, but I'm not going to
push this. I want to take my time and really see if he's
changed. See if he's truly changed. See if he truly loves
me. I hope he has. I do. I really do. I'm so crazy
about him...gosh I seem like a schoolgirl, gushing and all
that. I'm still in love with him...I never stopped loving
him. No matter what happened...I still feel this way.
Wow...that's kinda crazy. But I'm gonna get off of
here...gonna pop popcorn and watch a movie

Love,
*T*




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