tbqb12

my stupid mouth
2005-09-22 02:22:14 (UTC)

allllll in

last fall, after having been at emmanuel for a couple of
weeks, it seemed like it had been so much longer than
that. i feel pretty much the same way this year except
that i'm comfortable being here. but it feels like
forever since i've seen anyone from home...other than
taryn, whom i've already seen twice, thank goodness. how
else would i keep my sanity? i can't believe she got me
to talk about my feelings when i went to stonehill last
weekend. i always am more emotional at night, though.
i'm going to attribute it to that and nothing more.

i would say my classes are going well...that is, if i
weren't taking linear algebra. although i must admire
that my professor is an MIT and cornell grad who was at
MIT at the same time the events from the book 'bringing
down the house' were taking place and who also does
statistical research on the NFL in his spare time...just
for fun..., he wasn't meant to be a teacher. he does a
horrible job explaining things...or maybe i just wasn't
cut out to be a math major. calculus 3 is fine, though,
so i don't know what the problem is. something with the
word algebra in it should be easier than something with
the word calculus, but that's not the way it is. i just
finished writing my first article for my journalism class,
which will also appear in the ec times
(*cough*pieceofcrap*cough*). it's about what i know best,
poker. and then i have lovely biology. the title of the
course is life on earth. if i can't pass that, there is
no hope for me. not that it's really easy or anything,
but how awful would it be if i had to say, "yeah, so, i
failed my life on earth class." so pathetic.

living on the same floor as all of my friends might get
annoying...it' pretty convenient right now, but i can see
potential problems. we even had a maybe fight already.
but just a maybe one. politics get us fired up around
here, that's for sure.

sarah lives two floors above me, but it feels like i never
see her. i think she is having major withdrawal from me;
she always says how much she misses living with me...and i
definitely miss her, too. i think that even though
colleen and i are more similar, i enjoyed living with
sarah more. that sounds really bad, but so far, that's
how i feel. colleen goes to bed sooooo early, and when
she goes to bed, she does exactly that. sarah and i used
to talk sometimes for an hour before we actually slept.
and there is no pink at all in my room this year, which is
a little sad.

i had sort of an argument with kim. sort of. she's
coming to boston and going to symphony hall with her
boyfriend, jeremy next week. she suggested we go to
dinner or something after. i said she might as well just
stay here for the night then. so, like a week after we
had this conversation, she told me that jeremy doesn't
want her to see me. he wants to just spend time with her,
just the two of them. now, i wasn't planning on hanging
out with both of them. i've learned my lesson. but i
thought that was really controlling of him. i mean, she
sent me exactly what he said, and now i think he's kind of
a jerk. i just told her it was up to her. she knew i was
annoyed. i am. it was her idea to hang out afterwards,
not mine. and i don't even care if we do. i just don't
want him telling her what to do. it's not like her to let
someone push her around. wutevs.

sooooo...i pretty much can't not say this. i had the best
conversation ever with nick today. i mean it was as good
as an online conversation can be. we talked about poker-
related things...obviously, and then he was telling me
that he needs to write his resume by next week, but he
didn't go to the class on how to write one. so i told him
i would send him mine, and he could just change the
information. that's how i made mine. i just used kim's,
who used her older brother's, and changed the formatting.
this thing is getting around. so anyway, i sent it to
him, and he was like, "thanks doll." now, that is soooo
not a nick thing to say. it even made me a little
uncomfortable, but i just figured he was joking around or
whatever. so we kept talking and he said, "hey marissa i
have to go eat." ok...so you need to say my name to tell
me that...sounded kind of serious. so THEN he proceeds to
tell say, "i just want to let you know, talking to you is
more fun than anyone else...cuz you're smart...i don't
know, i just have fun." so by this point, i was like
beaming and giddy and stupid. i said thanks and that i
like talking to him too and that he needs to come visit.
and he said he will sometime soon. and that will be
pretty much the sweetest thing ever.

ok, so, to over-analyze...i feel like he changed a lot of
stuff by saying this. right? he wouldn't just say that
stuff to solidify our friendship, would he? in any case,
it made me ridiculously happy.




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