Violet

Allegations And The Things Left Behind.
2005-09-19 07:02:16 (UTC)

fuck

My mind is fucking warped right now. I'm tired as hell and have to be up in a few hours, yet sleep just isn't possible right now.

For hours now A. has been talking and i haven't the heart to tell him that i need to go. He's been mind fucked by a female, and while he was asking for it, I still have my sympathy for him. He's changed alot over these past few months and I'd really like to see him settled and happy. No matter what drama we went through while we were together, I still care about the him.

I've been home maybe a total of 45 hours over the past 12 days, so it's kind of nice being here right now. It's hard to get frustrated with family when you barely see them, lol.

Alex showed up last Sunday, my mother flipped out. Ironically enough he did miss his typical sunday call, and she did get worried and then he did walk through the door. We all thought it'd be slightly amusing if it went down that way.. but none of us thought it'd actually happen. He got to stop in Ireland again on his way home, so he picked my mother up a few things. He was suppose to be home the Thurday before, but got held over in Mosul for 3 days. I've seen him maybe a total of 4 hours since he's been home.

We're having Thanksgiving in September, how very odd. My mother wants to have it while Alex is home. Which is guess works, since if we waited until it was actually time.. we probably wouldn't celebrate at all. Holidays aren't high up on the list of things to give a fuck about anymore, not since Josh died.

Katie and I are taking our happy asses out to the high school tomorrow night. It's about damn time, lol. Hopefully i'll prove not to be a total moron. (Right)

Actually read Dane's journal tonight. Christ does that silly punk have some drama going on. Drunken drama, got to love it. My head would have already exploded if i had that sort of shit to deal with. Contemplated bothering him tonight, since i noticed he's online. But i figure it best if i just leave him be, he's probably not in the mood for my stupid shit anyhow, lol.

Got to talk to Joe tonight, always miss his punk ass when we both get busy. He's on my ass because i don't call more often. He'll get over it, the phone lines go both ways.

Okay well im off for now.




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