Onizuka

Onizuka
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2005-09-18 02:16:32 (UTC)

Where do I start

Where do I start? At the moment mylife ones again fill
like knuffing. This evening me and Laura (girlfriend) had
a mini agument. Everythink seem fine when talking over on
msn intill i told her that a freind had ask me out that
evening to a night club. I wasnt going to go but when I
told her she relpy 'Why didnt I get invited' I just relpy
he dosnt know you. Then she said but hey everything is
going wrong for me this month so i guess its no surprise
that u think im your ex bye. That just weird I havent done
anythink. to her. She starting to try to control me and I
dont like it.
We are going on hoilday the end of this mouth which I
guest was next week but i only found out that the 30th is
on a friday the week after. We were going to go to
Weymouth again which we did on my last hoilday off work.
My feeling for laura at the moment are very mixed up, I
fill if she would to say its over I would fill knuffing
but I m feeling so much guilt at the moment..Towworw
September 18th would mark the 5th mouth we have been
together. We started going out april 18th 2005, it was the
nite before I travel to mancher her to see her. She ask me
out over msn, I had only meet her ones after Wendy a
friend of myn ask me to talk to her on msn cos she was
going out and laura was feeling very down. It just happern
that very day my ex girlfriend Katie and her new boyfriend
got more than they ask for when they shouting and making
comments at me when standing outside work I felt al ful
when i got home after that. I rember coming out of the
break room on to the shop follow when I past her boyfriend
who was waiting for her. "Matt you ****ing twat" I just
walk past him prtending not here knuffing, but i heard it
all and my blood turn cold and i couldnt careles how much
trouble i would get into but i wanted to put a end to
this. I stood at the end of the car park for them quicky
finshing my drink off before they got to the end. As they
got near to me her boyfriend start chaning some football
thing somthink like "who are yea, who are yea" as they
came pass the bush i throw my bottle down (bad of me but i
did pick up next day) I throw down no caring and i started
walking towards them, my fist were very tight and you
could tell by there faces that they could be in abit of
bother. But I didnt hit him like i really wannted to. I
went right up to his face and shouted at him "WHO THE HELL
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, I HAVE HAD ANUFF OF THIS BALLSH*T
AND ALL OF THESE PRANK CALLS. IF YOU THINK I ACTY CARE
THAT YOUR BACK THAT PORKSCRATCHING THEN YOUR DEAD WRONG"
He acty tryed to turn everythink on me saying how I always
prank calling him bla bla bla had to change numbers. I
just told him there more than likey more than one person
in this world who thinks your a arseclown. The day those
to got back together he phn me and i just pick up the phn
thinking it was a mate. The frist thing he said was "YOU
F***ING TWAT I F***ING HATE YOU, IM BACK WITH KATIE. SHE
F***KING LUVS ME NOT YOU. I'V JUST SHAGED HER YEAH YOU
NEVER. I relpy lucky me. Then he started saying all this
crap about how there both going to get me after work and
all this. Nightmare.
I think me and laura maybe ok, she dose say she has bad
ways of writing things down but i am not shaw. I quite
worryed she maybe to hocked on me. My friend jay pointed
out that what would she do if i ever broke up with her.
She has had a history of cutting her self in the past. Her
past sound very freaky as she was into witchcrafted. I
know some people dont bleave in all that, I dont really
but people do it evern if there a change it could all be
just in there heads. Her dads a bad omen, he freaks me
out. He is really christain and her was going to send
laura his own daughter away to scotland for accoulpe of
mouths to be her mind wipe and to forget about me or
sumthink.
I have felt we are getting closer to each other but she
shaw dose know how to kick u right back and hurt your
feelings.

Sorry about my bad spelling


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