supergoddess

This diary is my kief,hashish,&opium pip
2005-09-16 01:19:00 (UTC)

Crushes

So, this entry is going to be about Jon.

Why? Because I said so.

He confuses me.

Up until now, I've been able to pretty much over-analyze
every guy I've ever liked until they made perfect sense.
Until every single one of their traits seemed completely
logical.

Jon isn't making any sense to me yet. Yeah, so, maybe
he's just a normal guy. Going to a normal school. In a
boring state.

He smiles all the time. He looks completely care-free, and
I wouldn't be surprised if he was.

He has never had an off day.

It puzzles me.

Usually there is a shallow, fake happiness in people that
I can see through most of the time. Jon has never seemed
like this, not in the least.

It really, really, confuses me.

Normal? Uhm.. what's that?

I've learned throughout my life that there is no such
thing as normal, and everyone has problems.

Everyone has traits and aspects of their personality that
aren't all desireable, everyone has obvious faults. I just
can't find his yet. Which bothers me, that someone could
slip through my radar, almost, with such coolness and
subtlety that I have to wonder how he goes on every day
the way he does.

But all in all, it's not important.

It's just something to keep me busy.

Ugh, not really, I'm just fucking around.

Just another thing to keep me busy? He's my fucking friend!

I really need some sleep.

Or sex.

Or.... hungry.

Yeah. I could go for some hungry right about now.




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